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2008-02-15T05:22:00.010+08:00

Who is MY VALENTINE? >> his name is J _ _ _ _

Want to know what HE SAY ABOUT...
CHOOSING A MATE?

Read to find out more.. He is an expert lover.. hee..

We know that it is the Lord's will for people to have a mate if they desire one. In the beginning when God created Adam, God Himself made this statement:
"... It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a help meet for him" (Genesis 2:18 KJV).

"Now the Lord God said, It is not good (sufficient, satisfactory) that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper meet (suitable, adapted, completing) for him" (Genesis 2:18 Amplified).
The Lord wants to bring a mate to those who will ask Him and have the patience to wait for His choice.There are some single people who are constantly out looking for a mate, and they are miserable because God has not sent them one yet. They have prayed and prayed, yet they still have no mate. Some settle for Satan's provision instead of asking God for the patience to wait for the one whom He would send. If they would look to Jesus and seek to please Him, rather than being concerned about a mate, soon they would find the right one crossing their path. Looking for a man or woman to just keep them from being lonely or just to fill their needs or to be a father or mother to their children should not be the only reasons for desiring a mate. They also need to be concerned about what kind of husband or wife they would be for a mate. These single people are still much in the flesh if they just want their own needs met. They should ask the Lord to fill them with His love and peace.

Being single is an important time to prepare us for marriage. It can also be a time to experience a closer communion with God. As we seek God to cleanse us of the world and help us become the kind of wife or husband that would bless someone, we will soon find that we are not lonely. First, the Lord would begin using us to bless others; then we will find we are content in Him. Eventually, in God's plan and timing, He will bless us with a wonderful mate so that both lives can be a witness for Him. We believe if a marriage cannot glorify the Lord, then it would be better to remain alone. There are worse things than being alone. One of these is to be out of God's will by compromising and marrying someone who does not feel the same way we do about the Lord.

Marriage is the second major choice we make in our lives, and we should never enter into it without much prayer. To rush into a marriage/dating can be disastrous. The most important decision of our lives, of course, is our decision to follow the Lord. This decision is not a one-time declaration, but a daily determination to follow Jesus above all. If we allow the emotional or soulish realm to dominate our lives we become more susceptible to the enemy leading us astray through someone. This area of the flesh should be brought under the Lord's subjection so that Satan does not get the advantage and consequently destroy our lives and ministries. So many have failed the Lord because they chose a man or woman over the Lord.
We find this true throughout the Bible, too. Solomon's heathen wives led him into idolatry. Samson lost his eyes because of a woman, Delilah. David committed murder because of passion for Bathsheba.

Our emotions need to be cleansed as they are not the sign of love. The true definition of love is "God is love." If God is not in a relationship it is not true love. What this world calls love is really lust since it is built on what the other person does for me, not what I can do for him or her. If the other person fails to keep up his end of the bargain, a divorce occurs because the offended mate is no longer pleased. This is the attitude of the world's so-called "love." God's love loves without receiving back; God's love is forgiving and patient. God's love is gentle and kind. God's love waits. God's love sacrifices.

1 Corinthians 13 in the Bible gives us a beautiful definition of real love: (In this King James translation the word "charity" means "love.")

Man's emotions are not a reliable gauge upon which to establish a marriage relationship. We must know in the Spirit that it is God's will. It is much better to marry for character than for emotion. Emotions fluctuate; character doesn't. Emotions are in the soulish realm, and unless the carnal mind has been renewed, Satan can give us emotions or feelings of love for someone of his choosing. (If he did not have this in his power, he could not split up marriages.) One of his favorite techniques is to suddenly take away the feelings one once had for his mate and give feelings for someone else. When he has successfully convinced a person that he no longer loves his or her mate, then he leads them to divorce, whispering, "You are living a lie." After he has destroyed that marriage, he then leads one to marry again by stirring their emotions for another. Often after their next marriage something happens that they do not expect. Before too long, friction begins to develop with the new mate, then arguing. Finally, they find the same thing has happened again; they feel no emotion for their new mate and the next divorce is in the making. "Falling" in love is Satan's way. The very expression of these words should tell us something. A Christian should not blindly "fall" into any trap. Love is bigger than simply falling for someone. Certainly, the Lord gives us a wonderful emotional feeling for the one we are to marry. However, this "feeling" without God's direction can be disastrous as Satan can tamper with our emotions and feelings too.

Marriage, in a Christian's life, should be based on a decision directed by the Holy Spirit. A Christian's love for another is a commitment. Of course, the Lord will supply the emotions for the mate He sends, but that should not be the criterion for making the decision to marry. The Lord should be sought, and whatever He speaks to us we should do. He knows the future and what is best for us. If we trust Him He will not fail us in this or any other important area. Women or men who allow emotions to rule them will never be victorious Christians. Emotions should always follow, never lead.

Those who are single and have never been married are cautioned in God's Word to seek a mate who is a like believer. "Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness? (2 Corinthians 6:14)." Many precious people suffer because they are living with unsaved mates. Some did not have Christ when they made their marriage decision, but they have since found the Lord. Those will have God's grace and love to win their mates for Jesus. The Lord always strives to bring the lost mate to Himself through the partner who knows Him. Mighty miracles of deliverance and salvation have occurred when people have endured suffering in order to bring their mates to the Lord. Those people who have the light, but choose to marry into darkness by yoking themselves to unsaved mates find that their flesh has led them away from God.

The Lord wants to bless marriage unions and see His plans fulfilled in both mates' lives. What a glorious plan He had from the beginning for both male and female. We can trust Him in this important decision. If we will totally commit to do His will we will never be disappointed in the one He sends into our lives.

R u willing to wait for His time?

2008-02-13T02:51:00.000+08:00

hi !~ apologise for a long time didnt blog.. hee.. not really faithful in this area though.. coz i was busy with new year and work stuff.. so much to update and catch up.. where should i start? hmp..

2007 had become a history.. now 2008 someone say is a new start/beginning, but i say is a new challenges for me! From the beginning of the year, i have great anticipation of what God is going to do something in NYP and in my life. I do not know how and what God will show.. but i believe that its coming to past..

It is a good start of the year.. went to LC in KL in JAn. It focus on loyalty. I realise that its not just being loyal to the people and leaders but also in the area of the spiritual encounter and gifting that He show to us.. R we going to response to it and do something about it after God has speak to us.. it truely shows our loyalty to God too.. True loyalty comes through testing. True disciple also went through strict training.. I pledge to release my leader, so that they can be able to do more things for God, so that together we can adVanced God's kingdom faster! so it also means that someone need to take up more responsibility.. when i reach Singapore.. the first thing i do is to make sure that i revise what i had just learn from the LC and apply into my life.. coz i do not want just receive motivation outwardly and that will not last long.. but i want to internalised what i have learn into a set of good habit.. its not easy at first when u choose to want to grow out of ur comfort zone.. many times when God challenges me, my stubborn spirit grew out within me.. but after wrestling and reasoning with God.. i still choose to Let Go and Let God.. Ultimately we have nothing to lose ma..! haha.. but ALL to gain in Christ when we start to trust in God for Him to transform us inside out! AMen!

i believe transformation is not an overnight thing.. so still choose to obey no matter how long is going to take.. thats y i say its exciting journey ahead for me this year!

anw i received email from one of my sheep Khem few days ago.. right now she is in Nepal for good.. she has been there for almost 3 mths serving God together with Lalita in Hope Kamanthu.. really blessed to know her.. though only shepd her for a few months but i can see that she truely want to serve God. She is very honest and open to me about her life.. i am thankful for this 2 sisters in my life.. appreciate the differences, the culture and life style. Looking forward to meet them again..

alrite got to stop here.. my patient is calling already.. ops.. (blogging when in work.. :p)

2007-12-27T11:11:00.000+08:00

THankSgiving!

wanna give thanks to God for the past months of blessing to NYPB n to me.. :)

1. For the past 3months, we had a total of 6 new faces came n join our family! Rejoice for ANNA, BAOXIAN,DEMING,ROBIN,SEAN,JASMINE!!

2. Had a total of 40 people from NYPB for this christmas n 2 lost souls has been found- SEAN n DAPHNE! Praise God!

3. God blessed a great weather and fellowship for the christmas countdown! -great bonding btw RP n NYP, showering each other with gifts n hugs..

4. Thank God for giving me opportunity to share christ to my family! :)

5. Thank God for giving me courage to pray for 2 of my beloved secondary school friends at their home.. responding to it well !!

6. Thank God for NYPB for all of ur hardwork! 1stly -- Thank God for the first line warriors- weihong, celestine n shareen being a great armor bearer to me.. given all that they have for this team! truely touched by the sacrificial spirit they have.. n not forgetting this strong n mighty co-team: chris,evangeline,kaisze,thomas,benjamin,
khokyen,huifen,yanwen,guihao n phoebe has given their most precious time in their youth day in serving the Lord.. deeply touched once again on how God has bring u through the season of challenges in each of ur life.. as i named the name.. realli wanna thank God for His favor and coverage on u guys.. thanks for being serving faithfully together with me in the same boat.. n i know because all of us see the same value, thats y we work so hard! Last but not the least faithful-armors: May,Jacqueline,Guan quan,brian,dawn,jiayi,fiona n jiaming has been very faithful in the little task that is given to u.. wow.. U guys hav the mustard seed faith that can move the mountains!! ALL glory and honor to the lORD!

its only the beginning of the harvest seaon.. let's get ready to ripe our fruits!! BE on guard NYPB!! God is going to shower down His harvest!!

Acts20:24 ''However, i consider my life worth nothing to me, if only i may finish the race and completed the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.''

2007-11-29T05:45:00.000+08:00

i really enjoy sheparding.. may it be shepharding sheeps or being shepharded..

i realise that we can be so vunerable to many things in life at times - distraction and busy-ness clouded our vision for God.. shepharding is a time for heart to heart sharing.. realigning our focus back to the vision and strengthening our faith to each other..

again being reminded about how God is a shephard to me..

as i am reflecting about my life journey, realise i have so many weaknesses.. How great is His love for me.. truely experience how patience He is to me and embracing all my weaknesses..

yesterday during my night shift, got to catch up with one of my collegue. as she is sharing about how she is unhappy and suffers in the work.. collegue not very supportive to her and how ill-'treated' n the unfairness she received.. as i listen to her, understand that as much as she wants to do the right things and love the people.. alot of times she is being 'judged'.. she finds it hard to forgive people that had wronged her.. along the way realise that she has actually accumulated all the hurts.. thats where i start to bring her back to the cross.. how jesus was being persecuted.. so much hurt when jesus wants to love His people yet in the end they choose to turn away from Him.. and was reminded what mother theresa as she shared this paradox shared by one of my friend to me.. "if i love until it hurts, then there is no hurts but only more love."

We can't love until we truely know who our creator of love is..

God, help me and my friend to forgive totally and love them like how u love us.. Amen!

2007-11-16T10:52:00.000+08:00

“Leaving The Past, Living The Kingdom”

As we get older, we have a tendency to look back, and if we aren’t careful, to give in to the selective eyesight that sees only the problems and failures of the past. It’s too easy to look for someone in the past to blame or resent and way too easy to stumble around in bitterness and regret.

The best thing to do with the past is to learn from it, while keeping our eyes on today and looking forward to the days to come!

Jesus talks about a man who “looks back” because he is not ready for service in the kingdom of God (Luke 9:62). Now what that passage is telling us is that the past can be a distraction that keeps us from being what the Lord needs us to be today! The apostle Paul talks about “forgetting what is behind” and moving on toward the things that God has ahead (Philippians 3:13). We’ve got to stay centered in today, seeking to honor God and living for his future. Remember what Jesus taught us to pray: “... your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven” (Matthew 6:10, TNIV).

The best way to change the past is to live the way God wants us to live today, rooted in the moment and living for God -- in service to others and in service to the Kingdom.

(Source: Paul Faulkner)

Phil3:13- 'Brothers, i do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing i do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.'

2007-11-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

As i am talking to my collegue just now, realise that we can easily get off track in life.. n realise the impt that no matter what is happening in ur life, no matter how busy u r with ur studies or work or challenges in life.. we shouldn't neglect spending time with God. sometimes it just need to take effort in perservering on.. she has been busy-ing with her degree courses.. n not been attending service for 2 mths plus.. n throughout this 2 mths she say she missed out so much of her life in Christ.. n in the end sub-consciously lost her faith even she didnt realise it.. it was a scary feeling.. n it do happen to me too.. i can identify so well.. but if u continue and determine to run the race with God.. God will nv short change u, in fact God will shorten the tough journey u r taking n extend ur time more effectively for u for His kingdom.. unless u choose to give up.. or unless u choose to hardened ur heart..

as i was reading book of exodus.. once again was being reminded how God's faithfulness is on the pple, no matter how pharoah kept his heart hardened towards God. but God's grace kept showering down upon them.. as i am reflecting.. :'how many times do i need God to forgive me? how much i hav sinned against him?" too much too much.. nothing that i should deserve for His forgiveness n grace to me.. but God is just too loving.. He just neos our deepest needs of our heart.. i am so thankful and touched by what the Lord has done.. felt a inner revival of my spiritual life.. God has never give up on me.. always by my side giving me the encouragement and strength to carry on when life its tough to get by..

what truely keep me going on.. ? Is the church fellows brothers n sisters, vision, promises n ofcoz this spiritual family- X2 and ofcoz NYP.. i really feel so much loved and blessed when i think of how NYP has grown n the milestone in each individual life.. wow! how faithful God is in taking care of this family.. realli thank God for weihong, celestine and shareen - very committed bunch of ldrs.. loving n seeing values in investing life serving God faithfully.. n not forgetting liyan, leslie, jey n desiree.. they r great support to this family..!

More Faithful than I - lincoln brewster

Even though i get off track , Lord Ur faithfulness never dies
Even though i turn my back, Lord Ur faithfulness never dies,
U'r always be by my side, when Ur arms open wide,
n all i need, U all provide
Lord U r so much more faithful than i... U r so much more faithful than i .. i...i
Lord U r so much more faithful than i

Even when i am full of doubt, Lord ur faithfulness never dies
pick me up n U pull me up Lord ur faithfulness never dies,
u always be by my side, when ur arms open wide,
all i need, u all provide
Lord u r so much more faithful than i..i...i u r so much more faithful than i.. (Lord i am grateful..) Lord u r so much more faithful than i..
so much more faithful than i..

2007-10-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

The Greatest Man in History ...

Jesus had no servants, yet they called Him Master.

Had no degree, yet they called Him Teacher.

Had no medicines, yet they called Him Healer.

He had no army, yet kings feared Him.

He won no military battles, yet He conquered the world.

He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him.

He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today.

2007-10-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

“ARISE! Stand in the Gap” celebrates Hope Centre’s 10th Anniversary and it consists of a Song Composition Competition, Short Film Competition and a Record-Breaking Trust Fall event!

Day / Date:
24 November 2007 (Saturday)
1p.m – 5p.m
Venue:
Nanyang Polytechnic

You can participate in:
· ARISE! Video
· ARISE! Song
· ARISE! Trustfall

Visit http://www.arise2007.blogspot.com/ for more information and registration.

COME AND JOIN US!!

2007-10-24T12:22:00.000+08:00

Sins and God.

Don't let your sins come between you and the Lord.
Even when you sin, God still wants to spend time with you,
hear and answer your prayers,
and help you with all of your needs.
He wants you to run to Him, not away from Him.

- Joyce Meyer -

2007-10-15T19:32:00.000+08:00

came back frm the X2SP LdrshipCAmp on sat night.. it was an awesome sight to see God's people so excited to be a servant for Him.. had a great fun.. as we play the game heaven Vs hell.. at the end of the day, as we shared what we learn thru the game.. was spurred by Jasmine's sharing once again.. to win the game, we should not just play the defending role only.. wanting to just protect ourselves and not getting our hand dirty or sweat and not standing up and protect the 'angel'.. Just like in the kingdom of lightness.. we r the child of God.. do we just want to grow ourselves till we r completely sanctified den its time to come out and testified His goodness? No.. it will be too late.. since we already has the 'mark' from heaven.. y r we so afraid to come out to share abt His goodness? r we more glad for the 'devil' score or the kingdom of God diminishing? i do not just want to care about my own growth.. protecting my 'holy ground' .. i'm gonna step out of my comfort.. challenge to share.. as we focus on the growth of the KOG.. surely God is gonna take care of all our needs.. Amen?! NYPB let's Break Beyond our Limit!! 45 ~end of Dec! Same spirit, Same heartbeat for Christ..!

2007-10-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

i am excited.. abt many many things ahead this coming week.. wow! i duneo y.. whenever there's a water baptism day.. i will be so excited for that day though i am not the one being baptist.. hee.. but the people who r gg to baptist.. and yes.. because its the step of immediate obedience to God.. i believe that God will surely do great things in their life as they follow God n obey His command.. i feel that the people are just like getting into a very grand ceremony where all the people, man and woman, leaders anointing and even angels will come and celebrate together with u! wow.. wad a privilege right?!

i still rem in 2002, i was baptist- i knew that my life is going to transform when i commit my life totally to God.. i know that God will do many great things in my life.. n i rem i had this vision that i dream of that every year after me.. at least one person in the group i am leading will be willing to come and be baptist.. not becoz of me.. but i neo that means i hav grow as my grp grow and also act as a reminder for me as how God faithfulness never fails.. n i am amazed tat God nv fails His promise.. not even once.. its so great to witness the people grow and be a willing vessel for God to use.. AMEN!
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Let's all b a willing vessel to be use by God.. to make the best for His kingdom sake..! Its really a privilege Lord to serve u..

Ephesians 5:8 '' For you were once darkness, but now you are the light in the Lord. Live as children of Light. "

2 Corin 5:17 '' anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!

(The Message) v16 -20B ecause of this decision we don't evaluate people by what they have or how they look. We looked at the Messiah that way once and got it all wrong, as you know. We certainly don't look at him that way anymore. Now we look inside, and what we see is that anyone united with the Messiah gets a fresh start, is created new. The old life is gone; a new life burgeons! Look at it! All this comes from the God who settled the relationship between us and him, and then called us to settle our relationships with each other. God put the world square with himself through the Messiah, giving the world a fresh start by offering forgiveness of sins. God has given us the task of telling everyone what he is doing. We're Christ's representatives. God uses us to persuade men and women to drop their differences and enter into God's work of making things right between them. We're speaking for Christ himself now: Become friends with God; he's already a friend with you.

2007-10-01T02:39:00.000+08:00

Sa-wa-di-car~ (greetins in thai)

came back from mission trip last week - sorrie for late updates.. went to Chiang Rai (C.R) province with Joel and Jiamin.. this is my 2nd mission trip that i went so far, last year went to Hope KS - Malaysia -God works greatly.. this time round, i see God in another dimension in the mission life. On last Wed we touched down in Chiang Mai airport and was welcomed by Pastor Lawan and sister Kwang from Hope C.R- both of them r wonderful woman of God.. love God and His people so much so that wherever they go, they will go and pray for the people in that village or province area. esp Ps Lawan - a woman after God's heart. realli learn so much from her heartbeat and spirit. Everyday she drive us around to diff churches in chiang rai. almost 10 churches within 6days. amazed at how God use simple pple to make great impact in many lives.

2nd day of our mission- we went to Hope Wiang Pa Poa acedemy. we got the opportunity to teach the primary sch and secondary sch kids to learn english n chinese songs.. it was an thrill feeling as u see them laughing and smile - simple heart.. i just melted.. the simple life that they live in. n thank God we hav the chance to share anyting that we want.. so decided to share christ to them.. started to draw a simple cross.. and a door.. n ask them to guess what is it.. from there start to share abt our heart is just like a door, we need to open up to let God come in to our life..... as i share i simply experience the touch of love and compassion in my heart for the kids.. n pray that it drop a seed in their small little heart abt Jesus.. n prayerfully one dae someone will ripe this seed..

then in that afternoon, we went to "Pu Che Fa'' = (mountain pointing up to heaven), the tallest mountain in Thailand, we stay at the 'inn' there for a night.. the next day morning 5am wake up and climb up to the mountain top with the thai team, there after they lead P&W.. den we start to sing praises and dance on the mountain top bfor our Lord.. it was an awesome view.. from the top view look down.. the whole province is covered with CLOUd. yes! is cloud.. onli can see the tip of the mountain..! remindered me on the creation of God which is so beautifully and wonderfully made.. realli thank God tat i am a believer of Christ, i wunt be able to see such a great scenary in my whole life if i am not one! Praise God for His pple to bring us tat plc 2! they r a group of pple who loves praising Him. Halleluyah!

then 3rd day.. becoz of the cold weather on the mountain top.. fever caught me.. temp on my head is burning.. then whole day i feel veri weak and lethargic.. pray to God to heal me along the way as we travel.. God didnt ans.. so struggle.. as we travel tot tat i can settle at the next destination we are gg.. so finally reached a church, thinking we can take a rest, but den the pastor told us tt we will have the prayer meeting there.. n worse is that.. the prayer meeting it lasted for 5hrs.. frm 7pm till 12mn.. wow.. realli a great testing of perserverences for me that time.. so again i pray to God to heal me since is a prayer meeting.. 1hr 2hr 3hr pass.. my head become heated up, burn even more.. even we gt to prepare testimony to share during that prayer meet.. feel no energy at all n no excitment to share.. but in the end i choose to go up n share.. i can sense that God is empowering me to share throughout.. n till the last hr.. 5th hr.. i can sense the heatness gone totally from my body! wow.. Halleluyah! God heals! Amen.. was so excited.. then share it to the team.. they r amazed too.. Praise God..

everyday i experience diff miracles and wonders throughout the mission trip.. not gg to share all.. is too much blessing to share here.. haa.. u can cum and ask me to share if u interested.. hope it encourages u to pray more and trust in God.. n Praise Him all day long.. n in ALL situation!! God is gg to deliver u as u set apart for His kingdom!

Pra ja Ooi porn = (God bless)

~update the picz soon..

2007-09-29T02:11:00.000+08:00

Our true commitment is seen in how we respond to the opportunities that are given to us.

"For the kingdom of heaven is like a man traveling to a far country, who called his own servants and delivered his goods to them. And to one he gave five talents, to another, two, and to another, one, to each according to his own ability; and immediately he went on a journey. Then he who had received the five talents went and traded with them, and made another five talents. And likewise he who had received two gained two more also. But he who had received one went and dug in the ground, and hid his lord’s money. After a long time the lord of those servants came and settled accounts with them" (Matthew 25:14-30).

"Talents" represent the opportunities that God gives to us. What does that mean?

We are given the opportunities to invest and use our natural abilities, not for ourselves, but for Jesus Christ.

I. Life is made up of opportunities in which we make decisions that count for our Master. Those opportunities require risk when we would rather play it safe.

What will I do with my life?
Should I get involved with my neighbor’s problems which seem endless and beyond any solutions?
Should I still give when i have so little left for myself?

i hear a true testimony from a pastor from Hope church.. who r very wealthy and rich but everyday live a fearful lifestyle, fearing pple will murder him for his money.. in the end he choose to let go of his possession.. n give his money to build churches.. now he live a simple life but yet with joy and peace..

Those opportunities to invest your life for Christ’s sake are God-given. What we decide reflects who we really are..

2007-09-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're precious& perfect unique design,
called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no mater how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind.,
And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart so that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved, Because there is a God!

2007-08-25T03:36:00.000+08:00

working night shift.. a day spend in the ward and patients.. : )

went out with my collegue the other day to watch by Jay chou. was pretty amazed by the ending.. change my whole perspective about him.. can't share too much about the movie.. if share it here it will not be a secret any more.. so those who haven't watch.. good show to recommend..

shared with her about work and life.. interesting to find a girl who had a simple thoughts in serving people.. whenever she pour a drink to a patient, will think of serving Jesus a drink as well.. doing every single thing with a thought to serve God. being appreciating in ALL things.. learn the spirit of giving in all circumstances.. thank God that i am where i am in..

wants to make my every day count!

2007-08-16T03:10:00.001+08:00

when is the last time i discipline myself to wake up early to run..?! haa.. cant rem..
last week i did it!.. went to school and meet up with shareen to jog.. bcoz she got project at 9am.. so we met at 7.30am to jog.. the weather is cool and breeze.. was very refreshed and charged up after the run! though is a slow jog of 2.4km, but i thank God that i completed it.. realised that alot of time i procastinate spending time in exercising.. realised the importance of keeping our body fits so as to keep our soul alive as well...!

wants to be discipline in keeping my soul healthy.. it all starts within..

God train my soul! discipline my body..

2007-08-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

inspire. by His wisdom
amazed. by His grace
impressed. by His power

God.. love

2007-07-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

Something that i learn as i reflect on jasmine teaching.. sometimes when we pray to response to God that we want to grow.. u find that u have makes the rightest choice in ur life.. however alot of time, unconsciously we'll fall into this trap call temptation.. which cause u to 'regret' somehow or another.. or even start to have another thought.. especially when u are alone making decision and when no one elses see u.. We will start to compromise to the sub-standard.. N we finds it a fulfilment in acheiving the decision we make on when we sucess.. but when there is a need for u to decide which force you to come out of Urself u start to become an 'expert mathematics' (~calculative :)) we start to count the cost and if it meet oUr own desire, we will obey it willingly.. (its easy to obey things that is in our comfort..) BUT if it cost so much of oUr sacrifice, will u be still so willing?

for me.. i dont wanna just make a decision to the response.. but i wanna claim Psalm26..
God u know the decision i made.. help me to be faithful..

i am refreshed once again.. thank you Father for not letting me go..

2007-07-05T12:41:00.000+08:00

went for the personality course on last sat.. learnt alot of great principle from within.. God made us infinately complex. Many agruement arises is not because of the individual person..or the situation.. but is due to the language that we use.. we miscommunicated with the language we use.. Each of us r created uniquely and differently.. thats what makes us appreciate each other even more when we learn the principle.. we cant live without each other.. coz we are not created 'a self'.. we can't function without a brain/heart/cells... though it might sound 'funny' .. however the truth is we r created in a body of christ.. so let's us appreciate each other differences.. and learn to observe and listen to their language..

same situation can have diff personality person
for example.. in a class.. we have different personality pupils.. (note: there are more than 4 types of personality)

Personality 'D' - they are always the one come on time and leave on time, able to catch up with the teacher's teaching.. becoz they are task-oriented person. An ideal person, have high sense of identity. determined-go all out no matter what but can sound-authoriative at times.

verses for u - James3:17, Eph4:26, Phil3:13

Personality 'I' - they are always the one who will be late and last to go off.. usualli are the nosiest one in class.. people-orientated person.. likes to be surrounded by people or friends. Influencial. creative person. always inspire the rest.. but if overboard- can become mouth influent only and not action. Can lose track easily.

verses for u - James1:19, 1Cor14:40,Gal5:23

Personality 'S' - always wait for friends to arrive then go together.. will not be on time to class. Very stable and submissive person.. given a homework- surely will able to finish when given enough time. if teacher ask question, they are always the one who is quiet. Do not like changes. People-pleaser. But loyal friend.

verses for u - Joshua1:6,2Tim1:7,Col3:23

Personality 'C' - very conscious on the details. will always do research before going to class. first to spot mistake of the teacher. Only have black and white answe.. no 'grey' answer in their dictionary. People of neuron-linguistic. Usually can't hand in homework on time as they always very details on work.

verses for u - Phil4:8,Eph4:31,Gal5:22

Let's appreciate each other's weakness and strength as God creation. Be the encourager and supporter for each other.

2007-06-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

its amazing! u have to see this.. angelic Voice..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSBmq0Zerow

2007-06-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

NYP EvO~~! 2007

Playing game

At Jacob's Plc
Sharing~

2007-06-27T13:56:00.000+08:00

my dear friends.. sorry for not being faithfully updating my blog.. haa.. reason 1> i can't enter coz i forgotten my password!! haahaa.. 2> busy with work..

thank God this few days i have more free time.. i can update my blog!! orelse i will recvd many 'rotten egg' frm u guys.. haahaa aniway many happening for the past few months.. went thru 2 transfering of ward for the past 4mths.. indeed a change for a better.. but ofcoz i dun mean i dun lyk my previous ward.. just that right now i realise that i hav been in my comfort area for past 2 yrs.. the staff realli embrace me so much so that when i make a mistake.. i was been shielded.. hmp.. now i feel like i have been released from the mother's wing.. help me to become more independent and making firm decision in my life.. somehow there's time where i feel really helpless and lonely.. just like getting back to my first year of work.. it was scary feeling.. but thank God for His grace.. again and again He sent people to train me.. realli tough though.. but guess what.. i went through it le!! Praise God.. with His assurance i realli felt so much peace within though still alot for me to learn.. but the vision that i got become clearer and clearer.. i may not be the world class nurse who knows everything or best staff nurse wiith great knowledge in the ward.. but what i am convicted is that i want to give my best service and smile to my patients.. at least to make their day a little brighter! :>

We had our NYP EVO retreat last week.. though is realli a short time for us to plan and many hipcups in between.. but realli want to thank God for the team who walk with me tog.. liyan,mingxiu, leslie,celestine,jacob,dawn,shareen.. many more to thank.. realli had a good time .. we see each others' weaknesses and strengths thru this period.. realli appreciate the accompany and learning tog with the nypians..

i think my life wun't be so colourful without God and people like ur.. many times as i reflect back.. i always cant help but thank God for everything He place in my life.. good and bad times.. people. situation. personal struggle. emotion etc..

i remember Ps jasmine shared this.. our life will be fulfilled if we live for our own needs only, accomplished things that give credit to ourselves.. but our life will be more MOre fulFilled if we live a life for others.. things and situation around us wunt be a big factor.. but will become a small factor.. becoz God the the Big Factor in our life who will always back us up.. we can never turn back the clock.. nor we can touch the same water for second time.. so choose to live a life worthy of His call every single day..

My Poem:

Lord All i desire is a heart after you..
help me, guide me and lead me walk beside you..
help me to be more like you lord.. to love your people..
.. Set my eyes in your lens.. Set my feet in ur way.. Set my heart close to you
A heart that Run after you!

2007-02-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

How you want this earth to be shape like? Created to be like in the future?

Came back from LC in JB.. new burden and new challenges awaiting for me to work for.. the question I had on my mind became the burden after I come back..

God showed me a luxury cruise ship. It represented the church. Men, woman, and children were eating, drinking, and making merry day after day. Everything they could ever want. Happy satisfied and full. A young person one day realized that all the things that were satisfying became dull and boring. The same old thing began to almost be irritating. One day they noticed the wheel of the ship. No one was steering it. They began to ask, "who is steering the ship"? "Where is the captain"? Probably sleeping or eating, drinking, or making merry some would reply. So one night when everyone was ASLEEP the young got up and went to the top of the ship and grabbed the wheel. They turned the ship around and started on a new course. Thus changing history forever.

How the history and the earth is going to be like.. it depends on the one who take the wheel.. who is the captain in your life? Isn’t possession, people, laziness, pride?

My prayer: Lord, have your way in me.. I am living for your will.. I will obey your every commands.. guide me in the way of your righteousness. Take the wheel in my life, I’m willing to live my life fully for you. Thank you lord, in Jesus name I pray Amen.

Listen: Jesus take the wheel

2007-01-24T02:52:00.000+08:00

PraISE THE LORD~!! have one convert on sundae.. welCome Sheila to this family of God.. is a friend of weihong.. excited! weihong has been sowing on her faithfully since last year.. Praise God, God sees the desires of the heart whose running after Him.. another good news.. my mum went to sundae mandarin service as well.. tis was her 3rd time.. tot she was still not convince that Jesus died for her.. haha.. i believe that somehow God touches her heart.. n i'm gg to shower this little seed in her heart n ensure it grow.. sumting cutie to share.. during n after the service my mum kept saying Halleluyah! Halleluyah..! haha.. so funny.. n the reason is bcoz she finds tat it sound nice n fun, tot she dun understand the meaning.. innocently she start asking me the meaning of it as we sing the praise song.. ai yoh.. cant imagine when she come n recevied God.. Her life will be so powerful lo.. believed she will become a shepd and lead mani pple to Christ.. haha.. cant stop laughing man.. arite.. gtg work le.. tata

2007-01-22T14:32:00.000+08:00

At The Cross
Verse 1:

Oh Lord You’ve searched me,
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.
Your holy presence Surrounding me
In every season,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

Chorus:

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

Verse 2:

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.

And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes,
And You stand before me,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

Bridge:

You tore the veil,
You made a way
When You said that it is done.

Chords : At The Cross : http://deetee.wordpress.com/files/2006/08/at-the-cross.doc

2007-01-19T04:38:00.000+08:00

received a few analogy of God through the science principle... was veri interesting.. first is i went for NYP3 cg on wed.. it was a eye-opener for me.. gt to learn abt the chemistry reaction from evangeline when she share in her leading in the holy communion..

our cg theme is on God's patience.. so she starts to share on how God's patience is like a chemistry reaction.. when a chemical react with another chemical it produces a product.. and during this product being produced it requires time.. and if the chemical was not mixed correctly, the whole chemical reaction will either destroy or will not work out. just like Jesus is the chemist, he is the one who produces us. n by forming us it takes some time.. when God mould our character, we need to be patience to see the transformation.. as God alreadi knows the product.. so we shouldnt be worry abt the product.. but its the process that we should be focus on and following on how God gg to make the chemistry.. ''God's way is always higher than our way, and His thoughts is always higher than our thought..'' so do not try to become like God - to take control of our own life.. becoz the fact is we r not God.. heehe..

if God exercises such great patience with unbelievers, who are His enemies, how much more with us who are reconciled with Him through His Son?

If God were not patient, salvation would be impossible: tat is y Peter calls it "salvation" (2 Peter 3:15).

If God shows such long-suffering with people who are "fitted for destruction" (Romans 9:22), He will all the more show patience to those that are prepared for glory, who have already repented and believed.

sometimes in life, becoz our the hectic lifestyle we tends to rush things thru'.. in the end we missed out lots of beautiful details that God has plan for us to enjoy..

Another beautiful analogy of what the blood of Jesus does for us.. read it frm an articles by betty miler.. revelation the Lord gave him - a comparison between human blood and the blood of Jesus. he mention abt function of human blood in the body - is to keep it healthy and alive. The same is true of the blood of Jesus. His blood keeps the body of Christ healthy and alive.

Another of the main functions of the blood in the human body is to facilitate cleansing of the system. This is also one of the main purposes the blood of Jesus does for us. To be in Christ, we are in need of cleansing. n this cleansing process is an ongoing operation, as we walk in the Lord, so that we will remain free from sin.

But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:7-9).

Let's have a daily journey with God n a daily cleansing from Him.. do not be covered by the haze that is in our daily busy schedule.. becoz all these are devil's trap.. When i start to take time for rest n meeting God.. realise that i have alot of dreams again to want to accomplish..

do u have dream for GOd? what's ur dream for God?

2007-01-09T00:48:00.000+08:00

AN apple a Day keep the doctr away..

From the beginning of 2007, I have not been feeling good.. today woke up at 5am to work.. feel that my migraine is back.. for a long time didn’t hav such a feeling.. den I start to pray to God that it will nt cause pain to my brain. Reach my ward n had my breakfast..

the moment I start working.. the migraine starts to get bad.. I prayed to God again to take the uncomfortable n pain away.. but it didn’t, it got worse and start to have the nauseating feeling too.. so pop in 2 panadol and hopefully it will get better.

Went in and out of the pantry a few time to rest.. suddenly Parni came in –one of the house keeper.. she was shocked to see my pale looking appearance.. ask me to go toilet.. so without much tots just follow what she sae.. when the moment I step into the toilet.. I start vomiting.. thank God that I am in the toilet orelse the pantry will be full of my vomitus.. hahah it sound groose.. but thank God after the vomit.. I feels much more better n was literally recovered n able to get bac to work normally n without feeling uncomfortable! Praise God..

Got to realise the important of eating healthy.. Let's keep ourselves healthy all the time.. Yeah!

In Christ, we conqured illness..

2007-01-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

Start a Year of Pink Health

Vitamins are organic food substances found only in living things, i.e. plants and animals. They are essential for our bodies to function properly, for growth, energy and for our general well-being.

VITAMIN A:

> helps cell reproduction. It also stimulates immunity and is needed for formation of some hormones.

> helps vision and promotes bone growth, tooth development, and helps maintain healthy skin, hair, and mucous membranes.

~ It has been shown to be an effective preventive against measles.
Deficiency can cause night blindness, dry skin, poor bone growth, and weak tooth enamel.

Note:
Tomatoes Cantaloupes Watermelon Peaches Kiwi Oranges Blackberries
Sweet potato Kale Carrots Spinach Avocado Broccoli Peas Asparagus Squash - summer Green Pepper
Pistachios Chestnuts Pumpkin Seeds Pecans Pine Nuts/Pignolias Sunflower Seeds Almonds Filberts/Hazelnuts

VITAMIN B1 (thiamine):

> Important in the production of energy.

> It helps the body cells convert carbohydrates into energy.

>It is also essential for the functioning of the heart, muscles, and nervous system.

~ Not getting enough thiamine can leave one fatigued and weak.

Note:
Watermelon
Peas Avocado

VITAMIN B2 (Riboflavin):

> Important for body growth, reproduction and red cell production.

> It also helps in releasing energy from carbohydrates.

Note:
Kiwi
Avocado

VITAMIN B3 (Niacin)

> assists in the functioning of the digestive system, skin, and nerves. It is also important for the conversion of food to energy.

Note:
Peaches Tomatoes Kiwi Bananas Cantaloupe Watermelon
Avocado Peas Potatoes Mushrooms Squash - winter Corn Artichoke Asparagus Squash - summer Lima Beans Sweet potato Kale Broccoli Carrots Green Pepper
Nuts: Peanuts Pine Nuts/Pignolias Chestnuts Almonds

VITAMIN B5 (Pantothenic acid)

> is essential for the metabolism of food as well as in the formation of hormones and (good) cholesterol.

Note:
Oranges Bananas
Avocado Sweet potato Potatoes Corn Lima Beans Squash - winter Artichoke Mushrooms Broccoli Cauliflower Carrots

VITAMIN B6

> plays a role in the creation of antibodies in the immune system.

>It helps maintain normal nerve function and acts in the formation of red blood cells.

>It is also required for the chemical reactions of proteins. The higher the protein intake, the more need there is for vitamin B6.

~Too little B6 in the diet can cause dizziness, nausea, confusion, irritability and convulsions.

Note:
Bananas Watermelon
Avocado Peas Potatoes Carrots

VITAMIN B9

> It helps in the formation and creation of DNA and maintaining normal brain function, and is a critical part of spinal fluid.

> Folic acid is vital for proper cell growth and development of the embryo. That is why it is important for a woman to have enough folate/folic acid in her body both before and during pregnancy.

Note:
Kiwi Blackberries Tomatoes Orange Strawberry Bananas Cantaloupe
Lima Beans Asparagus Avocado Peas Artichoke Spinach Squash - winter Broccoli Squash - summer Corn Sweet potato Kale Potatoes Carrots Onions Green Pepper
Nuts/Seeds: Peanuts Sunflower Seeds Chestnuts Walnuts Pine Nuts/Pignolias Filberts/Hazelnuts Pistachios Almonds Cashews Brazil Nuts Pecans Macadamias Pumpkin Seeds

VITAMIN B12:

> It helps in the formation of red blood cells and in the maintenance of the central nervous system.

> is the one vitamin that is available only from fish, poultry, meat or dairy sources in food.

VITAMIN C:

> It plays a significant role as an antioxidant, thereby protecting body tissue from the damage of oxidation.

> Antioxidants act to protect your cells against the effects of free radicals, which are potentially damaging by-products of the body’s metabolism.

> Free radicals can cause cell damage that may contribute to the development of cardiovascular disease and cancer.

> Vitamin C has also been found by scientists to be an effective antiviral agent.

Note:
Kiwi Strawberry Orange Blackberries Cantaloupe Watermelon Tomatoes Lime Peach Bananas Apples Lemon Grapes
Artichoke Asparagus Avocado Broccoli Carrots Cauliflower Corn Cucumber Green Pepper Kale Lima Beans Mushrooms Onions Peas Potatoes Spinach Squash - summer Squash - winter Sweet potato

VITAMIN D

> is known as the "sunshine vitamin" since it is manufactured by the body after being exposed to sunshine.

> Ten to fifteen minutes of good sunshine three times weekly is adequate to produce the body's requirement of vitamin D. This means that we don't need to obtain vitamin D from our diet unless we get very little sunlight – usually not a problem for children.

> Vitamin D is vital to the human body as it promotes absorption of calcium and magnesium, which are essential for the normal development of healthy teeth and bones.

> It also helps maintain adequate levels of calcium and phosphorus in the blood.

Note:
Mushrooms

VITAMIN E:

> Like vitamin C, vitamin E plays a significant role as an antioxidant, thereby protecting body tissue from the damage of oxidation.

> It is important in the formation of red blood cells and the use of vitamin K.

> Many women also use it to help minimize the appearance of wrinkles, and mothers use it to help heal minor wounds without scarring, as it is valued for its ability to soothe and heal broken or stressed skin tissue.

Note:
Blackberries Bananas Apples Kiwi
Nuts: Almonds Sunflower Seeds Pine Nuts/Pignolias Peanuts Brazil Nuts

VITAMIN K:

> is fat soluble and plays a critical role in blood clotting.

> It regulates blood calcium levels and activates at least 3 proteins involved in bone health.

Note:
Vitamin K is found in significant quantities in dark green leafy vegetables such as spinach, broccoli, and kale.
Pine Nuts/Pignolias Cashews Chestnuts Filberts/Hazelnuts

2006-12-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

Below is an attachment of a story.. do read it with care! Have a blessed weekdays!

Read this story, and follow the recommendation at the end......

As I was walking down life's highway many years ago, I came upon a sign that read
Heavens Grocery Store.

When I got a little closer the doors swung open wide
And when I came to myself, I was standing inside.

I saw a host of angels.

They were standing everywhere

One handed me a basket and said "My child, shop with care."

Everything a human needed was in that grocery store

And what you could not carry you could come back for more

First I got some Patience.

Love was in that same row.

Further down was Understanding,

You need that everywhere you go.

I got a box or two of Wisdom and Faith a bag or two.

And Charity of course

I would need some of that too.

I couldn't miss the Holy Ghost

It was all over the place.

And then some Strength and Courage to help me run this race.

My basket was getting full but I remembered I needed Grace,

And then I chose Salvation for Salvation was for free

I tried to get enough of that to do for you and me.

Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill,

For I thought I had everything to do the Masters will.

As I went up the aisle
I saw Prayer and put that in,

For I knew when I stepped outside I would run into sin.

Peace and Joy were plentiful, the last things on the shelf.

Song and Praise were hanging near so I just helped myself.

Then I said to the angel
"Now how much do I owe?"

He smiled and said "Just take them everywhere you go."

Again I asked "Really now, How much do I owe?"

"My child" he said,
"God paid your bill a long long time ago."

A lesson that I learn from this story: Don’t take God’s sacrifice for granted.. used everything that God paid for you with care and b a contagious spirit! Used it wherever you go..
What about u? how are you going to use the gift God given u in this harvest period?

2006-12-22T16:14:00.000+08:00

Guess how old am i? Yes, 2Big candles :0 heehee
thanks Ai Peng and denice for giving me a surprise birthdae at sukura.. tasted many international food.. they always neo hw to makes my stomach cheers! let's c.. more than 8yrs friendship.. went thru mani storm n sunshine.. no matter hw bad n cruel i can be to ur.. till times n again i made ur mad at me.. even i myself cant forgive myself.. but at the end u still forgive me.. (tats wad fwens r for rite?haha).. realli appreciate u guys alots.. Thanks my deAr Peng n dEN. hha.. muaCks..!!
Thanks NYPians for celebrating birthday for me 2..!! NYP3 and 7 > u guys have done me proud of u.. the spirit within is words that can't express.. u have realli moved my inner being through ur maturity growth.. haha.. everytime i see u guys.. i always see that God has instore great plan for ur! Dun give up Hope u have in Christ.. coz God collected every drop of ur tears and kept every wisper of urs..! let the passion of christ lives within u till eternity! Run this race tog till the end! proMise?! next Deb > thanks for playing the guitar, wahha tot it sounds off tune.. but nvm its the heart that counts rite.. hee still rem u tell me u dun like to learn guitar but was realli touched that dae u played birthdae song to me.. haaha, am i in my dreams? hahaa.. tot havent been meeting u up often, but still whenever when we met, the warmth n joy is tere.. hav seen u grown so much.. God is realli faithful to u.. u realli inspire me lotz.. let's see each other at the ending race2 .. mx > thanks for ur word.. ur cares.. and most imptly ur life.. thanks for allowing me to walk this journey tog.. u hav been such a blessing to me.. nv feels to encourage pple showing the spirit of joy even in times of trouble.. always putting ur trust in God no wonder God blessed u in abundant! yes u 2.. run like nv run in ur life before to the best in our life race! have so much more pple to thank.. my biological family too! hee.. thanks lian for getting a belt for me.. and ryan planning to treat me my fav food-Pizza.. but sorrie my stomach upsets me tat dae.. but i sees the heart.. my mum too.. the first to giv me pressie bfer she went for a holi! This year is the most special birthdae i hav had.. tot its not any great or big celebration.. but its the pple that makes my dae bright and happening!! last n nt least to thank my heavenly Father to send mani mani wonderful n trueful fwens n loving family in my life!

wahhaa a moment of Challenging..>> Jiayou we Can do It together!! NyPians~ Love u guys!

Thanks 4 being one.. beloved ward56

ChRistmas Party!

2006-12-22T15:51:00.002+08:00

1 Jesus + 3 Nails = 4 giVen

Jesus came down to earth to cover for the sins of many so that we (sinners) are forgiven and made right in the eyes of God.

Give thanks and reconciled back this relationship with God that is freely given to us, so that we can walk back right with HIm..

''Dear Father in heaven, thank you for forgiving me my sins. I acknowlege i am a sinner. Take me and lead me to your way of righteousness. i surrender my life into you hand, let u have control for i know i can't do all things on my own. Thank You Father, i knowlege u as my Lord and savior, in the name of Jesus Christ. AMeN!''

2006-12-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

You can't fake It / Small Things Come First

We’ve all been asked the question, ''Are you willing to lose your life for Christ?'' Perhaps we’ve heard it from our youth pastor, our leader or read or watched a Christian book or movie which revolves around the question.

As emotionally invasive and as spiritually relevant as that question is, I often find myself thinking that dying for Christ isn’t the question. Instead, my challenge to is: ''Are we willing to live for Christ?'' This is not unconnected from the question of dying for Christ, but is the first question we must ask ourselves.

Whether I am able to run a marathon is a good question. But first I must be able to honestly say I can step out the first step.

Let's put it another way: I cannot trust God when my two-month-old niece passes away if I am not trusting Him when I stub my toe. I will not be able to trust God in the big storms if I have been trying to stand on my own through the small ones.

We must all be willing to die for Christ. But before that is possible we must be able to say with the Apostle Paul, ''For to me to live is Christ, [therefore] to die is gain.''

Living for Christ is the prerequisite of dying for Christ. Obedience when no one is watching comes before obedience in public. And I’m talking about obedience that’s hard. Obedience that costs you something. That is why you can’t fake hard things, and that is why small hard things always come before big hard things.
Let's be faithful in little..

R you willing to live for Him? (start making a prayer n promise to God.. for He hears)

2006-12-09T05:59:00.000+08:00

=) fOr tomorROw wOuLd always be a ChallEnge...=)
today is a new day...yesterday was GoNE!!
n u coulD NeVer gO bAcK to yEstErday,
iT prOtraYs itsELf as
a MEMOry thAt woulD dWEll in YoU..
bUt TomORROw iS yEt tO cOMe n tOdAy iS
a new chaLLenge that you GiVe tO urSElf....
n toMOrrow thiNgs that r unpredictabLE woUld haPPEn...
so Lift uP all ur worries
n put ur wearies away for our LORD is good n faithful
n he will take away everything n bLess u
n anoint yOu wiTh aLL his bLessINGs
as yOu sEEk to glorify him when u walk towards him..

2006-11-24T01:00:00.000+08:00

JoyFullY mAking -A -Wish!!

GaSpy.. antIcipating a New hair-style this sat!!
shEep- be ObediEnce .. i'm 180yrs old le.. dun Mk me run after u!

thOrn- around the RoSes!! haha///

mAn-In-The-HouSe>>

2006-11-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

wOnderful sAvior!!

wOw.. had a great CG with my Unit yest.. realli enjoy myself.. initially wanna surprise weihong- the birthdae boi.. haha but in the end.. he became a sUper-spoiler.. haha unsucess surprise.. but nvm i think the affirmation was a very heart-warming one.. realli wanna affirm and thank God for this bro- who realli step out of his comfort in serving the Lord and the pple.. knew him frm a veri ''timid shy mega boi'' n by God's grace he now becum a Courageous Faithfilled Spiritual Man-of-God! wow!! a tremendous changes i see in him.. one who does not dare and shy to approach his classmate even to talk.. now his 2 classmates had been saved!! tats - pHoebe n Jacob.. wow.. pRaise God!!

this CG was the most memorial one as it's my first time i felt the presence of God so strongly being stired in every individual one of us.. my first time having praise in new song, my first time having communion with wine n my first time seeing everyone in the grp helping each other and learning the WOG with enthu tog.. hhaa.. realli enjoy the fellowship as well.. thank God for u Guys.. u have realli worked hard for this season.. God sees ur heart.. God sees ur cry.. n God sees the Hope you have in Him n His pple..

its just the beginning of this exciting journey.. still remember the ''Hope'' that we hold in our hand so tightly and the ''Hope'' that we submit it to the Lord? Let's take His business seriously and ride together with this Desire & Faith & allow God's timing.. JUICV = Join Us In Creating Victories!! Amen??!!

God u are so amazing.. being utterly amazed by ur Love and touch again to all of us.. realli duneo wad my life will be like without u.. i might end up being selfish, materalism and even self-centered.. u've indeed changed my life greatly.. nv will i imagine myself transform to be so confident in u and found back my identity!!

1 Peter2:9-10 - ' But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy. '

2006-11-22T14:35:00.000+08:00

You ARe My God

You are my God. You Are my Lord
You are tho one who leads me till the end
You are my God. You are my Lord
Lord, i ask, lead me and take control

Sometime i feel so lost, getting no where
sometime things go beyond what i can bear
Even when i use all my might and strength
there's no way but you Lord

Praise to my Lord, you come into my life
You counsel me and bring me to ur side
you hold my hands and lead me to ur light
You are my Hope. I can soar high

2006-11-21T00:13:00.000+08:00

decided to blog..

when a plant starts to grow, before that surely is a period of thorns ard them that they need to overcome so that to build their roots strong.. 2cor4:16- though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.' for God is building thru our character stronger and stronger each day!!

Let's be glad and sMile at the stoRm.. as God is always in control!

Loving God's character more and more !! wahoo

2006-11-12T19:12:00.000+08:00

pray over Hope Singapore
on tuk tuk bus

on the Death railway!
Beloved PsPN

LC#63 with uni grp

granny praising God!

2006-11-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

back from Thai LC.. wow.. its realli a great explosure for me.. coz its my first time.. came to neo many international ldrs n pastors.. realise that God used pple with humility, willingness n gd attitude. esp PS PN and Simon, great respected ldrs - had dinner with Ps Simon, realised that he is a simple guy who willing to do thing which God entrustred Him to do.. a man of mind of God and wise ldr..

During their P&W, it was a hilurious moment.. came to meet God face to face.. excited for the words that has been prophecies and preached.. n it reali come to pass.. Cindy Jacob a prophater came and prophecise Ps Pn over Hope Bangkok.. n now it has come to pass.. reali amaxed how God uses pple in the mist.. God awaes uses the weak so that he can be make strong in God! amen!

let's plunged into the business of God seriously to see the supernatural power that God intend to do in Hope Singapore~~!!! chEErios!

2006-11-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

Guess what is all these? what it is made of?

yes!! is this made of paper.. isn't it amazing?! there are all made up of their creator, as wonderful as it can be.. just like how our Creator in Heaven has creates each individual of us as uniquely beaUtifuL.. Let's use our talents and gifting that God has graciously granted us for the sake of people..

realli excited for this cuming sat.. gg to thailand trip.. wow.. with the rest of the ULs.. my first time.. i am sure i going to learn as much and impart as much as well.. had set 3 objectives for the trip.. ready to go! yahhoo!! but now going to drag myself to work haha.. but thank God today is my last night.. yeah.. kambateh!

2006-11-02T19:56:00.000+08:00

Touch Of Faith
Joy Williams

Most live a lifetime and never see
The soul of tomorrow in someone's eyes
Some give up on all of their dreams
One second before they materialize

But love broke through walls of stone
It was You, it was You alone
You crack the sky like broken glass
You rescued me when my chance had passed
Sometimes things aren't as hard as you may think
Because all you need is just a touch of faith

Some never ever turn a key to the door of their heart's desires
Too afraid to fall somewhere in between
Tomorrow's fears and the pressure's fire
Your love broke through walls of stone

It was You, it was You alone
Your touch pushed back the clouds just like the sun
Your hand pulled me out of the hardest time
That I've ever known, that I ever knew
Oh Lord, that was all because I met You
Your love broke through walls of stone
It was You, it was You alone

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2006-10-23T16:57:00.000+08:00

was reading a book entitled '' The Holy Spirit My Senoir Partner''. Letting the HS dir3ct one's life is not alwaes easy. How many times we need to confess our sin of trying to do everything by ourself.. one thing i learn about Jasmine sermon yest is that don't see the HS as an experiences only. He's an awesome person, we shld awaes develop a communion and fellowship with Him.

Quoted by the writer-Paul Yonggi Cho: every morning, when i awake i say, '' Good morning, Holy Spirit. Let's work together today and i will be your vessel.''. Every evening before retiring i say again, '' it's been a wonderful day working with you, Cover my family and me with your divine protection as we rest through the night.'' The next morning again i greet Him as a person and invite Him to go with me through the day and take the lead in all affairs that must be handled, and He does.'' When we are able to humble down and let the HS to take control in every area in our life.. i believe we will live a victories christian life. Let's build this intimate relationship with Him daily..

2006-10-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love means?"

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." ~ Rebecca, 8

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." ~ Chrissy, 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." ~ Terri, 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." ~ Danny, 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," ~ Nikka, 6

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." ~ Tommy, 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." ~ Cindy, 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." ~ Clare, 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." ~ Elaine, 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt." ~ Chris, 7

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." ~ Lauren, 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." ~ Karen, 7

And the final one... ... ... Author & lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

Spend ur time with me when u hav thousand of tings yet to complete.. - to me this is love! what abt u? can tagged to share the answer.. : )

2006-10-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

Love God Love People!

was reading rick warren's article.. n it capture my attention to this page.. Ed Young notes: "We've forgotten several things about the characteristics of Jesus. Get in an average church and ask, ‘name all the characteristics of Jesus.' They'll say he was lovely, he was kind. One thing they'll often forget is he was a friend of sinners. We've forgotten that - how to be a friend to sinners."

If you minister to people where they hurt, you don't have to worry about a chance to introduce them to Christ; they're going to ask you about coming to know Christ," He said. "They'll want to go to church with you. But you can't befriend them in some superficial way and ' hang a scalp ' on your wall. So the church needs to be there to minister, to love and nurture, and when people come in they find what the world's looking for - life!"

Our response to loving pple shld always be - ''I'm ready to listen to you; I'm ready to love you.' I listen and help."

2006-10-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

A crackpot Life!

A water bearer in China had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it, while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water. At the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water to his house. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfec t for which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do. After 2 years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. "I am ashamed of myself, and because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house."

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?

That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back,you've watered them.

For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house"

Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them.

Blessings to all my crackpot friends.

2006-10-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

Moving On and Moving Up..

(An article from char's trinity mag)

You n i are living in a time of divine transition. Not only are things changing in the world around us, pple's lives are changing too.. Yes, God is shifting His people-perhaps even you-from one assignment to the next, from one sphere of influence or authority to the next, from one opportunity to the next, n from one season to the next.. He is moving us forward in our destinies, advancing us in His purposes, n equipping us for the greater accomplishment than we have ever known.

> Do u sense that u r in a transition?
> Do u sometimes feels as though u keep bumping into the walls of opposition or facing hardships u never encountered in the past?
> R things u do not understand happening to u?

If u can ans yes to any of these qn, there's a good chance God is indeed moving u to the next level.. U can be sure that God does give us the wisdom n knowlegde abt the changes in our lives, even u dun hav anyone of those.. God says He will provide everthing u need to make the changes for u to move from whr u r into the next season He has for u.. so do not have to wait and fret, n u do not have to beg.. You simply need to have faith that u have enough to make the shift..

Ecclesiastes3:1 tells us that there are different seasons in our lives and that ''There is a time for everythin, n a season for every activity under heaven.'' when u find urself in times of transition and season of change, know that God is moving u to a new level. The process which He will ake u thru is jus as impt as the destination to which u r going. Get ready to move on and more up!

2006-10-03T00:07:00.000+08:00

Just Married!! Congratulation IVY n VINCENT...

it's so blessed to attend n involved in my fwen wedding.. it's my first time but its one i enjoyed the most of all i attended..! haha.. nv will i imagine that ivy its the first one to gt married.. haha.. ivy, do u remember during secondary sch daes.. u, aipeng, jacintha n me was predicting who will hav bf first n gt marry first.. n all of ur guess is i will gt bf n marry first.. haha.. now u all r wrong.. u r the first one who gt bf n married 1st.. all our pprediction are wrong!! hehee... very glad that u had a veri good hubby.. can see that he truly love u.. so be blessed n happy together k!! i believed that this marrage are protected by God! Proverb20:12 '' ears that hear and eyes that see- the Lord has made them both.'' do learn to cherish each other in diff season of time okie, to love n to forgive, to protect n to enjoy, to be patience n gentle to each other in every moment.. jus as how God did to us..!!

cherish the time that we had tog is nv a past.. it's always been in my heart forever.. thanks for letting me be ur fwen again!! Lov u lotz Ivy!!

i pray that u will let Jesus be ur fwen too! '' Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, the old has gone n the new has come.''

2006-10-01T01:46:00.000+08:00

Heaven is a wonderful place.. fill with glory n grace.. i wanna see my savior face.. heaven is a wonderful pace.. haha.. jus feel like singing this song.. realli r amazed how God working thru' pple life again n again.. how God touches people in diff languages, diff culture, diff characteristic .. was talking to phoebe in msn.. today she went to cg in Hope penang.. wow can realli see that she is on fire with God.. it's veri cool the way hope penang hold their cg.. guess whr they hold they cg? is in a dancing studio whr they book.. n tey using the projector for P&W.. initially onli 5 of the members in the cg.. den suddenly 3 visitors came into the studio n in the end join in the cg.. haha.. so funni i think they r looking for their teacher. but in the end being invited to the cg n they jus sit in.. another thing i learn frm their spirit of efficient>> these3 gals duneo anting abt english onli hokkien n mandrain.. in the end the leader n a person jus translate for them impromtu-ly.. the cg pple willingly jus shared to them in their language. i believe that phoebe sure learnt alot frm them.. n even she told me that tmr she is meeting her fwenz.. gg to sow on them.. wow.. so great n excited for her!!

God making ways for all who come to Him.. let's try our best to influence wherever we are!!! Galatian6:9 -''Let's not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefor as we have the opportunity, let us do good to all people, esp to those who belong to the family of believers."

2006-09-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

FriUites daeS!!

todae is my OFF dae.. haha wonder y i gt so much off daes? hmp.. i'm not sure oso.. but thank God for that.. i can rest! hhaa.. spend my dae fruitfully.. was at home alone washing clothes for my family (1st time in my life)-haha.. breakthru! being real.. i reali hate washing clothes.. my mum will always nag at me on tat.. coz esp the moment when u need to put the clothes up to hang.. its super tiring.. i mean its heavy n i always gets dizzy when i do tat i duneo y.. perhaps is hypotension.. haha.. no la i think is excuses.. but anw nw i learn to like it.. at the same time online n blogging.. den after tat i met jiahui for sheparding.. had a great time discussing the ministry.. she had clear vision from God for the grp.. realli see the seriousness in her in wanting to see a brkthru.. was realli amazed at how God change her from a inferior gal to a woman who truly got burden to lead a grp now.. Jiahui n her team has being always working very hard in sowing n outreaching.. i believed that God is going to make this nyp3 into a strong n biblical grp of influential pple!! jiayou!

after that went to ordered ivy's wedding cake.. heehee gg to give her a surprise during her wedding cuming sundae.. wow so exciting.. den gt to see rachel(hey welcum bac to s'pore!) n tog char fetch me n go to ivy's hse n had a make-up trial for ivy for this sun.. char is the make-up artist- we tried alot of colors for ivy.. in the end thank God it cums out to be veri BeauTiful!it'l be gg to be so xciting.. on sun me n char r gg to be the bridesmaid gg to be early in her hse.. wow first time i witness my fwen getting married.. it'l be so blessed! we had great time taking many photos (to b updated soon! chk it out). at the end we prayed for the couples a praying of blessing n went home.. rachel drove us home.. along the way we tok alot abt our fwenz, tok abt being a living christian etc.. realise that alot of pple sae themselves as christ follower.. but not alot r living out a christian life.. but realli thank God that both of them holds firm in their faith.. den we even tok abt the North Korean etc.. now i gt a great burden for north Korean which is still having a communist gov. the south n north border etc.. unable to get into the north n pple r living in darkness.. n pple believing in no religion..we realli gt to pray for them to see a revival land.. n rachel is gg back to melbourne tmr.. all the best to u.. do impart to ur students whenm u gt back to mel.. n hope to catch up agn one dae..! i am going to miss u for sure!! n char too, thank God for ur sacrificial time tot u r super busy with ur church project.. realli learn alot abt to be excellence in the spirit for all things..

Let's Live in Step with God all the Time n Place!

2006-09-27T14:21:00.001+08:00

ALL the best To u AUrea!! We will miss u ..

Aurea (on the right)- someone who always giving the smile for her patient..
Nv complain about anything.. as she will be transfering over to another ward to bless the pple tere.. hope that u realli learn to move on.. ofcoz will miss u greatly! u hav been of great help in wd56!

Sister Anita (on the left) - realli learn alot of precious lesson frm u.. seeing tings frm the perspective of the patient.. u have been veri patience towards ur staff n patient. Always tere to support n teach ur nurses.. tot sumtimes u r veri fierce but u nv choose shortcuts to do things.. she will also always surprise us with 'love letter'-(paste note on the locker), in the end can't go home on time due to certain things not done.. haha.. thanks for doing ur best in reminding us.. All the best to u transfering to another ward too..

N will welcome Brother Jeffery too as our new nurse manager - (spot the guy in the pic..hee), tot i dun realli neo u much yet.. but can see the willing heart in u learning frm sis anita.. hope to neo u better in the cuming daes.. n impart to us ur skill too!

.. sumtimes i finds it stressed n feel like giving up.. but i choose to do my work with joy! the cuming challenge i see was realli xciting.. n the challenges has merely juz begin.. let's build every step we walk to eternal!

Lord, remind me that nothing is going to
HAPPEN TODAY that
YOU n I together
CAN'T HANDLE

gtg wash clothes le.. tata

2006-09-20T03:51:00.000+08:00

hmp guess whr i am now? i'm in the hospital.. nt hospitalised but working nitez shift.. hahaa.. anw.. was reflecting abt my life in Hope.. it have been nearly 3 yrs i am in Hope Church Singapore.. n many things happened within- happy, sad, stress, joyful, blessed, disappointment, wilderness etc.. compare my 15 yrs as a non-believer n 6yrs in knowing God n 3 yrs in Hope.. these 3 yrs in Hope i have gone thru the most feelings ever.. realli seen thru things in Hope - the moment i cried the most is in Hope, the most happiest time i enjoyed been in is in Hope and i dare to do things most in is in Hope too.. wow Hope is realli another home in my heart whr i feel so free.. can't imagine how my life will be like if i nv come to neo God and whr He put me in such a lovely palace! ofcoz i wanna give thanks to God of my fwenz in Hope bro n sis that walk in my life n leave footsteps.. u guys realli deserves the best.. -all the ldrs, shepds, sheep,cg buddy, acquientance etc.. (wunt mention names coz if i do i will use up my one whole dae in typing the names)..hehe.. w/o u i will nt be who i am n i will not neo the value of myself in Christ le.. U'r precious in God's eyes.. so Let's continue to walk in step with Christ and be faithful to His calling.. everyone of us are unique in Him.. we onli hav one yr spend in our age.. so make full use of it! let's be an effective n efficient child of God, realli excited in the cuming yrs.. i believ God is going to use NYP greatly..
>> Raising new Hope new Generation!

It's a small sMall WOrld.. we can WIN it we can WIN it for the Father!!

2006-09-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

Which Tree Did You Fall From? tell me ur birthdae.. n i will let u neo.. hehe

i am a FIG TREE (the Sensibility) -> >very strong, a bit self-willed, independent does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family,children and animals, a bit of a social butterfly, good sense of humor, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.

FIR TREE (the Mysterious) -> extraordinary taste, dignity, sophisticated, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to them, rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious, uncontented lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable

n todAe is my bEst fwen aka sister aka mother's birthdae --->>> AIPENG (let's see which tree she fall into) U r a --> WEEPING WILLOW (the Melancholy) -> beatiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.

HEY! Peng, thanks so much for awaes giving me the support and encouragment all this 9 yrs.. wow it has been a flies of time.. realli gone thru thick n thin tog.. u r the onli person who neos my needs n heart to the best beside the Father.. haha.. realli my mother man! may our fwenship last for eternity!! ALL the best to u n last n nt least.. i i I LovE UUuuuu...!!!!!!!!!!! heehee..

2006-09-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

fiNally haVing my long wAiting leAve.. haha.. for the past many month has been looking forward to tis days.. but actualli honestly now when i am on leave i do start to miss working.. hahah.. 10 more days to go.. Gosh!! hw to survive without working- is like a zombie man.. but thank God that i have more time to spend with my friends n family..

todae is quite an interesting dae.. went to my grandma hse in the morning, bought my grandparents favourite 'da bao' haha.. chatting with them.. update to them my life etc.. n finalli i did sumting crazi.. haha.. i suggest to help my grandpa to cut his hair as its getting longing.. in the end my uncle brought out a shaver and ask me to shave for him.. heehee coz my grandpa skin is veri fragile hehe dare not shave for him as i afraid to cut his skin.. so as a good gal i juz observe how my uncle shave.. n in the jus help to sweep the floor.. den my grandma ask me next time to cum every month n cut for him.. ops tats becum a promise in the end.. haha overall hav a great time laughing tog.. den after tat went out with my uncle and cousins and their fwenz to PS with free transport.. c0ol rite!? in the end bought many many bread and bun home.. haha my uncle family is a bread-lover i can sae.. gt to ans my uncle alot of qn along the way.. haha so stress.. but anyway will nt elaborate more..

den after that go n meet jiahui pheobe n jacob in PS. went shopping for awhile as jiahui cant find any semi-formal shirt for the anniversary.. spend quite a fruitful dae overall.. n realy thank God for my grp member.. esp the new memb-jacob.. he's a veri sociable n fwenly person. can realli see that he is willing to neo God more, and he mix well with us.. onli guy in the cg but he dun mind oso.. haha.. n oso pheobe the most noisest and crazi gal.. haha realli njoy spending time with her..- a great evangelist too, awaes yearning for her classmate to cum for church.. haha but we r gg to miss her ssoon coz she gg off to penang nxt week le.. but nvm we will still keep her in our heart..rite? n ofcoz i didnt forget the rest of u guys.. andrew, joey, ken, weihong, evan, celest, josp,khohyen, chris,choonpang-our new bro.. n ofcoz the rest in NYP u guys r the BEST encouragers n armor bearer.. awaes giv me lotz of surprises n seeing lotz of miracles happening in ur.. Thank God for u in my life.. let's makes this grp a happening and influential grp of all in extending our love to more pple ard! xcited for this round of history making..!
jiayou all of us!! let God be our driver n take the wheel of our life (hehe.. )

Arite.. will hav to sign off here le

REACHING FOR THE DESTINY__:> ''but if we hope for what we do notyet have, we wait for it patienty''

2006-08-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

received this e-mail, get to read how this "Big Boss" life being transform From Crime to Christ: Former Yakuza Sees the Light

Gambling rings, womanizing, and amphetamine highs were the norm in his late teens and twenties. A lack of respect toward a crime boss cost him the tip of one finger; various gambling debts resulted in two more meetings with a knife blade.
His life began to change after he married his third wife, Mariko, a former hostess from South Korea. Fresh from a two-year stint in jail, it was she who encouraged him to come to church. Still, substantial behavioral changes would take time; he continued on as before, collecting mistresses and playing dice games.

He hit bottom in 1990. After fleeing Osaka with a mountain of debt and an army of gangsters on his back, he stumbled into a church in Tokyo's Shinjuku district. There, he would spend three revealing days. Truly moved by the words of the Bible, he soon after entered the seminary, leaving behind the underworld for good.

"People do not believe my past when they look at me in a shirt and tie like this," he says of the attendees at his various speaking engagements for companies, clubs, and schools around Japan. "They never think that I am the same person. But after hearing what I have to say, they will see something that is happening in their lives. As you know, the Bible seems [at first] to be far away, far from reality."

Indeed, the Bible is a tough read in Japan, a country dominated by Shinto and Buddhism. Christianity is embraced by no more than 1% of the population. But Suzuki sees the enlightenment offered by Buddhism as not being sufficient for people with troubled pasts.
"So many people need God when they are powerless. They do not have the ability to deal with problems. And even though they have achieved enlightenment, it doesn't mean that they have been saved. They are totally different things."

Japan's historic societal reluctance to change isn't a consideration for Suzuki. Cross in hand, he's set himself to breaking down barriers. Soon after finishing the seminary, he started Mission Barrabbas with other former gang members. They have collected their heavily tattooed torsos under the slightly tongue-in-cheek slogan, "God is our boss." Cruising the streets of Funabashi during the week, they assist the downtrodden. For Barabbas, it is a never-ending job.
Suzuki believes that Japanese people as individuals are looking for something new in light of the nation's recent economic slump and moral degradation documented daily in the media. Being saved is the answer, he says.

His drastic physical and emotional changes he's undergone are the keys to his strategy, and he literally has them coming to him.
"The contrast of my happy face with my tattoos shows people things which words cannot convey. And it makes people wonder, 'Why is he so happy? Why is he acting happy? Why is that?' Instead of me talking, people come asking what happened - and then they ask about Jesus, because Jesus is the reason."

2006-08-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

was toking to my ex-sheep on the phone just now.. hmp.. felt so long nv in touch with her, really glad that she had grown out of her area and willing to step out the step.. realli missed the time spend tog during shepding time.. i really enjoy the moment when we are able to get in touch.. there's a leader in the church once mention before.. that we can onli see life change from far, but it's only in close proximity we can see life transformation... so i realise the impt of meeting people up and connect the unconnected to our faMily.. realli have a great burden for pple who dun hav a home, as sumtimes they finds themselves getting lost in the mist of the game.. realli God have areadi given His best to us.. wad more do we ask for??

LoVingU mOre N moRe EaCh Day!!

2006-07-25T14:14:00.000+08:00

was browsing thru my life journey in my mind.. i am very glad and grateful that i am not living my life aimlessly.. people close to my heart did saes to me once that they find life boring and meaningless. unable to get the freedom and not knwing who they are seeking for and lookin for.. wad if after seeking the happiness tat they long for in their life.. den wad's next? and recently i watch a chan 8 TV program(Shoot2). they ask this qn: Is singaporean happy? how do u define happy? wad makes a person happy? For me there's always new things n new challenges cuming out.. n u can't sae that it's finish or i'm done! I believed that Singaporean hardly able to recognise happy as all of us are too pampered by our parents and government.. it's hard to measure compare to a rural country. For us, when we have a tape player, we seek for a CDplayer den seek for a MP3 etc.. we keep asking for more, therefor we r awaes seeking for happiness but for a rural country person as long as they have a roof at their head.. they are contented enuff and they will treasures everything they are been blessed..

Happy for me is when u'r SuCess n able to see somethings that is impossible turns it possible.. just like initially u r a quiet person but becoz of God's power and ur heart attitude u'r transformed into a great influential.. or sumting like Patricia Mok she said once that people keep on wanting to becum more pretty n famous in completing, but becoz she neos wad she have and she makes use of her looks to mk herself as ugly as possible so that no one can compete with her.. n in the end she became a great actress. n now when pple wants to act like her to be as ugly, she changed her strategy to becum as demure n pretty as possible.. i learn from her is that sucess cums by when u neo wad u have and make use of the outmost opportunity to make a difference..

many stresses in the working life esp.. altot its normal to feel physically tired coz we r all human, no one will force u to go out of the track. Just like a fisherman- unless u go thru a strong storm, den u'll realise how strong the boat is n it's thru the responsibility that u'l retain.. hold on the responsibilty and expand it bigger for the kingdOm of God.

Let's ALL Strive to be sucessFul in all our area for the kinGdOm.. in miniStry, cAreer, StUdies, FaMily, rElaTionship, hObbiEs/iNterest etc..

2006-07-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

went for a class gathering last wed.. although not full attendance but i still thank God for those who attended.. it was really a great time get together once again with our 2 beloved teachers.. our art teacher Ms Goh (aka my angklung and music teacher) one who always inspire me with her drawing and music.. her patienceness in teaching us.. spending the whole evening with us after sch doing our final art(batik) piece.. took a total faithful 6months to finish the piece of art.. wow.. art is really not easy.. thank God for her in guiding that i got a B for that.. n rem that during sec4 our art class oso represent the sch to draw 3 mural pieces on the wall outside tech room, it was my first time too drawing mural.. was realli proud that we can leave something behind when we left sch.. n stil i rem one dae when we paint the wall half way, it started to rain and in the end we spent the day outside the field playing in the rain haha.. it' was so fun! really missed those daes!! Thanks for all the things u done for us Ms Goh oH no is Mrs... haha

N not forgetting our form-teacher (aka history, PE and english teacher) Ms Quek - now become Mrs Tan and now her son Ian is areadi 2yrs old.. wow times really flies.. i still rem the day she walked into the church aisle during her wedding time.. as a class we are invited to sing for her.. i still rem that we sang ''I stand in Awe of U'' it was such a blessed and memorial moment.. i was very proud to have her as my teacher and not just that as my friend.. she is someone who indirectly brought me into serious thots of accepting Jesus in my life.. (shall not say so much.. but those interested to listen to the testimony, can cum to me personally.. i am more willing to share coz if i share here.. it wil be super long). She is one i respected the most in my life.. she protrayed out a good role model as a leader.. she is really serious and passionate in her work n most imptly she really loves her students.. i still rem in sec 3 swimathon we are having inter-class competition.. though our classes didnt came in first, but during the sec 5 rebirth we participate again as a whole class.. and yes almost whole class people went down to swim.. and in the end we came in top in whole sch wow!! it was the most glorious breakthru we see in ourselve.. all thanks to Mrs Tan she trained us to swim everyweek.. can really see that she put in alot in us.. make our class so united.. haha still rem that the last dae of her school.. after she sae her 'last' words.. all of us started crying and herself 2 ran out the class n cried.. it's the most touching moment then.. realli cant bear to c her leave us.. haha thats so silly of us when i think back.. and oso during her birthdae, i rem shuxin smash a plate of cream unto her face, n that moment can see that she is abit angry but hhee coz she love us so much tats y she didnt show out.. haha.. right Mrs Tan? but i really enjoy the moment spending time as a class tog.. really thank God for all the STC teachers (esp Mrs Tan, Ms Goh, Ms Seah etc) and Saint Joaners.. You guys have really make an impt turning point in my life.. thanks for the memories and prunning the love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness and faithfulness spirit in my heart. I LOVE U People.. we shall c each other again in next class gathering.. woahaha!! waiting forward to c Mrs Tan's womb little one!

2006-06-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

wow it has been almost 1mth that i last post anyting here..

was rather glad that i went thru it.. thank God for it.. it was the very first time that i teach in WFL tog with Nel.. it was an awesome, unimaginaeble experiences that i ever had.. imagine after a long night of work, having 1/2 to 1hr rest n with a heavy eyebag, brain-freeze n loaded-heart went into south america room and start sharing the WOG.. initially i wanted so much to just run out of the room, pretending to get sick and hoping sumhow the class to cancel.. haha.. wad a silly tots rite.. but really thank God that i went thru it, n it was the first time i felt so much peace and assurance.. can realli feel the presence of God with me.. altot the process of revising the sharing was not easy, struggled alot in the mist.. not neoing how to share it interestingly and interrective.. thank God for the people who r very understanding and responsive.. n thank God for nel.. she is one who really had a strong n firm belief for God.. realli admire her willing spirit.. even she was sick she stil make an effort to come n teach.. her heart for people realli inspire me.. something that i learn thru the teaching..>>
Jesus did not look for the easiest way or the most comfortable way, but He looked at God's way. Jesus showed us that at times, obedience is not convenient. when we face suffering and still obey God, it is a proof of our true obedience to God in the same way that Jesus obeyed God.
''No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it'' let's not run away from the calling that God plan for us.. if only we can fully obey Him, we will den experience fully the joy from God!! let's be in the plan of God!!

Heb12:1-3

excited for more challenges ahead in Life!!________ :> Let's us shine for Him

2006-05-31T02:21:00.000+08:00

Sidebar — Why Pray?

Thoughtful quote on prayer worth meditating on.

“To be human is to pray, to meditate both day and night on the love and activity of God. We are called to be continuously formed and transformed by the thought of God within us. Prayer is a disciplined dedication to paying attention. Without the single-minded attentiveness of prayer we will rarely hear anything worth repeating or catch a vision worth asking anyone else to gaze upon.”

2006-05-23T14:31:00.000+08:00

spending my time with my dad at home watching TV was not the first time le.. i was infront of the com writing mails n hearing the Tv programme, n at the other hand my dad reading newspaper n hearing Tv programme at the same time.. i am listening thru one of the sermon in the net.. learning abt the living life in intent.. (1cor9:24-26) n when it comes to one part that the pastor keep on saying abt we shouldn't live our lif recklessly.. my dad sumhow was abit irritated.. saying' y this person keep on saying abt God etc.. haha wanting so much for me to shut the sermon, in the end since he see me so 'free' i was asked to cut hair for him.. btw not trimming hair for him onli but is cutting the white hair among the blacks for him.. haha.. guess wad this time round saw so much of his white hair as compared to the previous time i cut for him which was almost like 1/2 yr ago.. we chatted abt things ard the world etc.. i realise that time rushing by so fast.. missed the sweet old time.. but i blieve that time that had bfore can be onli a memory.. but the most impt things we need to grap hold now is to hold the future tight n live it to the ultimate.. n when we look back the time again.. u will not juz pounder on it.. but u will grinxz n said.. i've made thru it! thats the excitment part of life.. n i learn today that is.. if u want to enjoy the game in the end, u should go thru strict training first.. so that when the real game comes.. u will nt suffer thru the stamina but u will enjoy it becoz u hav the stamina..
n nw i rem y my dad alwas push me to swim laps when i was in the age of 7.. n when i look back i wanna thank God for him.. the kind of hardwork he push upon me n my sis.. nw i am able to endure more hardship in life!!

Love ya dad n Father!

2006-05-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

http://www.donghaeng.net/index-e.htm

You makes all things beautiful in your time..

in life we walks along many rocky paths.. unsteady road.. we do always complain out to God 'y people always get what they gets' and 'what about me?' many a time we did not realised how blessed we r in this part of the world.. yet keep on wanting God n demand Him for many things.. God yearn to give us everything we want to have.. but one thing we have to ask ourselve is.. r we able to take it now? if God given us all things that we ask for. will we start to take him for granted n nxt time.. we will just be busy in things that we like n forgotten abt the one who given us..He will makes all things right in his time.. n altogether he will make it wonderful.. n when we look back at the journey we will realli thank God that he walks me thru'' God will not bring us to the destiny, nor will he changed us to be a great person.. BUT his promise is that He'll provide strength, guidance, love, patience n a partnership with us when we walk thru the journey with Him..

deeply in Love agAin!!
huimei

2006-05-09T01:47:00.000+08:00

toAsted Pig!heLp!
>>> h3re's 2 m0re!

A3roplaneFlyOver

sAndAllOver ~

SuiCide Window~

YeAh! we'R the SurViv0r!~

aniother ToAsted pig aniOne???
ops.. i mean toasT fishcaKe!

Challenge Ur Limit!!

on 30thMay'2006 at sentosa!
great memories great pal!

2006-05-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

wo0hooo//!! another one up! pRaise God.. received one sms from andrew.. guess wad?! as he was sharing Christ to a freshman -Chris over dinner.. he amazingly took the step of faith to recved Jesus!! eXcited to witness cnvrt even 0n the 1st dae of week@@! wow.. God really bless when you r faithful in small things.. m0re to come.. i believe God is gonna used this guy ministry BIG time n BIG way!!

just came bac from a leadership class after my postnight.. has seen a great insight abt discipleship.. was encourage by barnabas.. becoz of his believed in Paul and his discipleship in him.. Paul from an anti-christ person became a great influential leader in the Gentile church.. n in the end his church multiply.. i have learned that the marked of a true disciple is to experience a changed future thru' the acceptance of JC n undergo a changed lifestyle.. n oso matured into a changed worldview - attributing to a deeper comprehension of the true meaning n impact of Christianity.. to be a disciple not just be FAT in spiritual but must protrade FAST character.. Faithful in little tasks being assigned, Availabilities in involving activities,
Submissive in recognise n obey the divine orders,
Teachable-willing to be corrected n makes efforts to improve.. but i do believed that a person with a right heart motive n dare to make a difference in expanding the kingdom will sure inherit the trait.. Speed is the key!

Those who are busy rowing the boat will not rock the boat.

>>> InChristAlone-I PlaceMyTrust <<<

2006-05-04T14:18:00.000+08:00

2nd refill of ink...

I love Colours.

Colours that are warm, vibrant & of unique shades.

Purple. Orange. Green. Pink. Red. Blue. Black. White.

Some of the all-time favourites of mine.

No matter how beautiful the other colours are.
Black always seems to make them more beautiful.
A starking contrast.

It's like Jesus on the Cross. He was made the black sheep. When we took our places of precious gems on the High Priest's breastplate(God's). Or the reality that we are whiter than snow, washed by the measureless worth of Christ. Our Brother. Saviour.

We sparkled even more.
We stood out.
Outstanding.

Black or white? It's clearer to see. Some issues of life are just grey.
Let Jesus figure how to separate the white from the black. He knows how already

wALKing in the shadow of darkness with Confident..

2006-05-04T11:47:00.000+08:00

A Journey...

as i was worshipping and praising God with this song in chinese (U R Y).. it really spurs me and reminded me again the reason why i live.. And in my QT - i approached psalm 66:8-20 , with full confident God ensure that He will answers our prayer as we humble and cry out to Him.. let's sing praises in all kinds of languages.. try it!! it's c00lL..

Psalms 66:8-12,18-20
v8-"Praise our God, O peoples, let the sound of His praise be heard:"

-Let us sing praises to Him in good and bad times..

v9"he preserved our lives and kept our feet from slippering."

-Praise is a powerful weapon, do not despise it! His promise - keep us safe as we follow His footstep.

v10-"For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver."

-Remembered someone shared as how silver is purified.It's burnt at a extreme temperature...as it purifies it becomes reflective. It reflects the thing of whatever image is in front of it.

v11''you bought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs.... you brought us to a place of abundance..''

-God promise abundance life ahead..

v17-19'' i cried out to him with my mouth, his praise was on my tongue. if i cherished sin in my heart, the Lord would not have listened, but God has surely listened and heard my voice in prayer.''

我为你而活
我的一切
全心全意
与你心跳动
每天我都会想起你

你是我生命
赞美的理由
所有的一切我献上为祭
你是我的爱
奉献的理由
所有的一切全属于你

我为你而活
我的天父你是真理
你是一切我需
我灵更渴慕认识你

I LIVE FOR YOU
ALL THAT I AM,
ALL THAT I DO
MY HEART BEATS WITH YOU
AND EACH DAY I WAKE I THINK OF YOU

YOU ARE WHY I SING
YOU ARE WHY I LIVE
EVERYTHING OF ME I
PLACE AT YOUR FEET
YOU ARE WHY I LOVE
YOU ARE WHY I GIVE
EVERYTHING OF ME BELONGS TO YOU

I LIVE FOR YOU
YOU ARE MY GOD, YOU ARE THE TRUTH
YOU ARE ALL THAT I NEED
MY SOUL IT LONGS FOR MORE OF YOU

have a blessed dae ahead!!

2006-02-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

wow! really impressed by the generation-next camp team members.. who are pouring out so much and sacrificing their life into it.. may it be finance, time, blood, sweat.. they realli going all the way out.. 3 Cheers for u guys!! ''Hooray!!HoorAy!! HooRAY!!'' thank God for NEL the camp co-ordinator, larina- 'da er long'' ops, colin, timothy, jorris, mingxiu, aifang, leslie, joey, yuhan, richard, jeremy, jeyraj and dawn.. Great combination with great warriors of God who always stand in the front-line.. it will SURE be an imPacting camp for the POLYDI! Want to see a life-transformed U? Being sAlt n Light? what r u waiting for? Let's GO!!

For God so loV ed the world ,
That He gA ve
His onL y
BegottE n
SON
That whosoever
Believeth In Him
Should Not perish ,
But have Everlasting life."

John 3:16

ManAreCreatedToMoveForward
===== jeraine ========

2005-10-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

todae is our 3rd dae of outreaching altot there's no responsive contact.. but i remembered this sister that i approached.. her name is Evangeine.. i get to know she is a christian from a church.. toking to her in msn.. realli encouraged by her testimony.. wanna shared it to ur.. have gotten her permission oso hehe..

this is how it goes.. i ask her ''how do u commit to Christ?''

''For few months aft becomin a Christian, i will still doubt God for some of e things He asked me to do as was quite a negative person be4 noe Him.
Until one day, a healing evangelist, Ps Benny Hinn, came to Spore. That was a time of faith testing as i had a problem since young. i can't speak perfect english because of my short tongue which act as a disability. My teacher even said once that wif this problem, my oral will hav a pro.
Haha my Bro in Christ told me to pray abt it as he said ta it can be well thru God. When went for the meeting, i was truely amazed and God really healed it by extending my jaw. even felt it. Aft ta day, grew even more committed and grew more in faith.
much really thanks God for all ta. only share it once or twice. Coz God had done so much thing that lost count of how much He had done. So keep sharing diff things.
He always is amazing. also walk a big round, from a gal with a anti-Christ mindset to a gal who now know there is a real God. t truely is a long journey.....
becoz of e world influence, we even forget abt the pri purpose of why we are here for...
You also inspire me. Sometime during e journey, there will be dryness but glad that knowing someone who also walk the walk road for God.''

She realli inspired me and oso reminded me about the wondrous plan from God.. how amazing it is to see people firing for God.. n its really not an easy journey.. it has been a long run.. but God is forever so faithful to us.. saving me again and again..
sumtimes when u work u tend to blend into the world.. n get influence.. n tats whr realli test ur faith.. n the temptation can be so great 2.. And God is faithful, He will not let u be tempted beyond what u can bear. But when u r tempted, he will also provide a way out so that u can stand under it.

Brothers and sisters, let's rem the purpose God created us to be.. n Pray that we all made it together and fight the g00d fight of faith. Amen!

============Loving the WOG'' Treasure the WOG'' Carry the WOG ================

2005-10-13T21:14:00.000+08:00

when is the last time u felt u r working hand in hand with God?

it happen to me yesterdae.. when i tink of it i cant stop but to laugh.. God is so funni n cute lo, realli tickles my bone.. On tuesday i'm workin afternoon shift n it was the most busiest dae for me.. on my last hour there are admission!!.. ended up go home abt 11pm.. really hate it to the core.. haix.. n somemore the nxt dae is morning shift.. oh no!! realli bad!! The morning came.. the moment i step into the staff room.. there it goes my day.. one of the patient started shouting in the ward.. my college attended to him.. i tot he wants to go toilet or other thing.. but nv knew that he shouted at my friend that yestersdae when we admitted him, we nv give him the toiletries n he cant brush his teeth!! n he is realli man!.. when i heard of it.. the first tots in me.. "OH NO" yest I am the one admitting him..!! n the next tot is " oh no.. todae sister is working'' if she knows abt this thing i am gonna to kena scolding from her.. its realli reali bad.. initially i was thinkin to go up to him n appologise to him.. but my staff nurse tell me nt to.. coz he is realli mad at me!! so i continue to receive report from the nite nurse.. den after finish passing the report.. one strange thing happen is.. i saw water flowing out from the cubicle.. so out of curiousity; i went up to look at it.. haha.. guess wad.. the water came out from the bathroom.. it was the patient that mad on me just now went to bath n in the end flood the bathroom n overflow out to the cubicle.. when i ask what happen.. the patient that mad at me a few minutes ago in turn smile at me n admit that he did it n even appologise to me with the guilty smile.. hahaha.. when i saw that situation.. it realli tickles me.. God can realli turn a bad suitation to a miracles.. this is the first time i c tis happen.. initialli i tot i will get scolding from the patient n my sister.. but in the end turn up to the other way.. the sister even came to me n tell me that it wasn't my fault that i nv give him the toiletries.. n even explain the situation to the patient.. wow.. realli praise God.. if not for Him.. i think i will be thinking of quiting the job.. waahaha............. wahahaah.............

wanna encourage pple who r stressful in sch or working is that.. always work hand in hand with God in everyting u do.. He will turns a bad situation to a miracles..!! realli trust in Him in everything u do.. He will realli see u thru' !!..

ExCitEd In Life...........................................................................................................................................

2005-10-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

HOPE KOTA SAMARAHAN I LOVE U!!!

this is the very first time i went for mission trip.. it was defininately an awesome experiences.. the sisters and brothers in christ realli genuine and lovely.. they r pple running after God's heart.. realli inspired by their sweet and simple faith spirit.. they have a BIG dreams for Jesus..

I have captured the vision of world mission from there.. pple are so ready and xcited for church planting.. even a member or a 3 daes old christian in church they too give their best to God n make us feel so hospitality.. really being encouraged by their life testimony.. They r great instrument of God, their heart attitude is sumting i learnt n hope to bring back the burning heart spirit to singapore..

On 4th oct'05, we took a total of 1 hr 15mins journey flight to Senai airport.. when we reach there we were aproached with warmth embrace from Hope KS sis florance and bro ah heng.. they treated us like VIP.. really felt at home.. we came to canaan land ministry house n take our rest.. we went to campus visit (UNIMAS) at KS, visited a korean sis Min yeong n bro Jung heon food fair.

i started to appreciate the natural resources(mosquito n flies aound) and God's cr4eation. at 4pm we went to another sis ministry hse at bethany to have BBQ. we shared testimony with each other and we enjoyed the fellowship.. the sis n bro r realli dilligent for God. Hosting us to their best.. n plan every minute to make us occupied. the spirit of perservances realli can find in them, either is in studies or ministry..

Want to thank God for the leaders in KS - sheila,cindy,jeslyn,pei yee etc.. a great role model for me to learnt from.. waiting for them to come to singapore fer a leadership conference.. yeah!!

2005-09-09T15:44:00.000+08:00

todae i'm on night duty so i'm free now to blog.. jus now my mum sis n i had a great time making mooncake haha.. so long make mooncake le.. haha.. rem the last time we do tog is 1998.. hehe almst 7yrs wow! hheehe but realli njoy ourself..

yesterdae realli had a great time 2.. seeing so mani fwenz i long to see.. wanna wish aipeng a HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY once more.. 21 yrs old le woo.. cannot be playful animore k.. haha.. anw get to see huimin.. wow so reborne her hair.. haha.. but had a good talk wif her.. adine n bQin oso miss them so much.. veri long time nv get to see n tok to tem.. n CJ n click oso .. find tat when i am nw in the working world i realli miss out alot of fun n happiness haha.. nw den i understand my dad n mum awaes tell me tat its good to study.. i understnad their hardwork and suffers.. hehe.. this is the world.. i guess one must have a positive attitude to pass the test of life.. hehe.. am i right? i duneo but hw i get myself motivated is to approach every dae every difficulty as a form of challenges.. n see the end product as a fulfilling result and a learning lesson..

gtg stop le.. see ya guys soon.. do update me abt ur life k.. hhehee..

2005-06-13T13:30:00.000+08:00

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.

We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

*Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
*Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
*Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
*Remember, to say, "I love you" to your spouse and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
*Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

2005-06-04T00:58:00.000+08:00

A peom for NYP4 .. Entitled :

NYP4 impossible and 4 possible mission!
(translate to chinese! NYP si bu neng, si neng)

We all have different personalilty..

We all come in different shapes and sizes, different family and background.
We all have strength and weakness, what's right for one person may not be right for another.
But we are one bunch of forgiving and LOVING people, having STRONG DESIRE
towards God's words and also appreciating each other strength and weaknesses.
And sometimes our behavior doesnt make any sense to another person
But we have great INTEGRITY, marching towards to understand each other more and
communicate well, because we live in the same house of god
We know we can't expect each other the same things we want, because we are not the same person, so we'll not always see things the same way
But we are EAGER TO LEARN from each other and wants to be humble and also being
teacheable
We mayb have our own thoughts and own ideas that may or may not fit into the vision of who we should be
But yet we know that we are serving the same god and having the same vision. Not
being compromising but being spirit lead to build us up to become a matured
servanthood fulfilling the great commission in our life time

2005-03-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

A pOem for U..Njoy .. Luv u..

Beauty Among The Thorns

Gentle gift of nature
With heart of love that's pure
Spectacle of beauty
That fills the heart with awe

Snow is gently falling
In quiet all around
Pausing for mere seconds
See life's nature crowned

Rapture in a moment
That never fades away
Glory of this sacredness
Is captured on this day

Heart feels such emotion
With such a gentle stare
Life within this second
Seems to have repair

Nature's gift so perfect
As snow now covers earth
God is in His Heaven
On earth we shall rejoice

For all that He Has given
Will take our breath away
If only for a moment
We found such peace today.

~Francine Pucillo~

2005-03-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

hi! pple.. its has been a long time since i last blogged.. haha.. realli missed blogging.. juz to update a little about my life.. i'm going thru' my last year exam this week and thur is my last paper!! yeah.. do pray fer me k.. hehe.. and for the past week during the fasting week .. realli had a great time with god.. enjoying the moment..

its when u feel totally weak but still know that there's someone there to lean on.. wow.. the feeling is.. undescribable.. haha n this song hit me tat moment n wanna share it with u.. enjoy it!

Emotional

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional
*fade*

You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl get use to it
No big deal

You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

Don't give up
I won't hurt you
Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel oh yeah
That's when I need you
Sometimes I get emotional
*fade*

That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

by Diana Degarmo

2005-02-04T15:31:00.000+08:00

The history of the baby frog.......

Once upon a time there was a bunch of baby frogs....
… participating in a competition.
The target was to get to the top of a high tower.
A crowd of people had gathered to observe the race and encourage the participants.....The start shot rang out.......
Quite honestly:
None of the onlookers believed that the baby frogs
could actually accomplish getting to the top of the tower.
Words like:
"Åh, it’s too difficult!!!They’ll never reach the top.
"or:"
Not a chance... the tower is too high!"
One by one some of the baby frogs fell off…
...Except those who fastly climbed higher and higher..
The crowd kept on yelling:
"It’s too difficult. Nobody is going to make it!
"More baby frogs became tired and gave up...
...But one kept going higher and higher...
..He was not about giving up!
At the end everybody had given up,
except the one determined to reach the top!
All the other participants naturally wanted to know
how he had managed to do what none of the others had been able to do!
One competitor asked the winner, what was his secret?
The truth was....
...The winner was deaf !!!
The lesson to be learned: Don’t ever listen to people who are negative and pessimistic...…they will deprive you of your loveliest dreams and wishes you carry in your hear!Always be aware of the power of words, as everyting you hear and read will interfere with your actions!Therefore:Always stay…POSITIVE!And most of all:Turn a deaf ear when people tell you, that you cannot achieve your dreams!Always believe:You can make it!

2005-01-03T16:25:00.000+08:00

a New dae , A new life.. looking forward for this dae to cum.. finalli sch team starts agn.. first dae of sch is quite a catch up wif my fwenz.. realli happie !! but project starts to pour in oso.. but its ok.. my resolution for tis cumin yr is to sudy real hard n gt my best result i ever can get.. coz is last sem. areadi no time fer me to play a fool.. hehee.. arite gt bac here.. it had been a long time since i last blog.. i guess gt miss me rite? sorrie.. dun hav the time to write .. hehe.. but i do realli mizz all of my fwenz.. todae saw quite alot of hope pple too.. like yuhan, zhihui, hannah my sheep n lotz more.. wow.. tey all look refresh.. n its so great to see everyone once agn in the same campus n serving god at the same time.. hheehee

yest meet up wif cheryl we hav a great time tokin n sharin our life.. realli appreciate tis sista.. although she was like awaes wanted to meet me up but i cant set a time fer her.. so sorrie.. but at last we still meet up.. n she bless me wif sumting too.. haha.. so blessed.. n share abt alot of tings in life n i can learn frm her.. the cheerful spirit.. she is sumone wu is veri encouragin wen i was dwn she awaes tere to pick me up wif words of advice.. haha.. she said tat i change le.. so sad.. haha.. she say i change to becum more serious.. duneo izz good or bad.. haha.. but i tink i'm serious wen i need to be serious .. "p can be crazi at times 2... hehe..

wanna share wif ur the experience i had in IMH.. i tink fer this 2 wks i learn alot frm the patients tere.. ere's tis particulars uncle.. i love him so much.. he will awaes called me 'nu er' haha n i will call her 'papa' .. i tink he mk an impact in my life at the point wen i'm working tere.. initially i finds him quite nagging, but everytin he saes actuali leave a deep impression in me.. i rem tat he tld me to tks ting easy n simple.. as he share his past to me.. initialli it doesnt realli impact me much.. but wen i get bac.. actuali i tink abt it.. i realise tat my life i'm living in a veri hactic n fast pace.. n sumtimes i dun hav the time to sit bac n realli tink n appreciate tings ard me.. i awaes tot tat time is precious n shld do ting fast.. but i was wrong.. we shld actuali do tk sum rest in btw our busy-ness.. n nt juz work like a machine..
his life story realli impacted my life n durin the last dae of work i actualli cried.. realli missed the time i hav wif all my patient.. alots of their real life story.. n realli start to realise tat actualli i'm veri blessed n lucky to be born in my family.. n pple ard me are so loving n sweet!!

reaali wish tat tey will one dae be discharge n be a good citizen n start refresh n c a purpose in their life.. n nt drownin in their own world.. i will keep tem in my prayers..

love everyone n lastly wishing all A hAppIe New Year.. may all of ya NY resolution cum true.. be bless tis yr.. cya agn! *winkx*

2004-11-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

during tis camp.. its was one of the most awsome one tat i' ve been to.. mani mani live transformation n real life testimonial.. i juz cant get tis time off.. realli miss the time we had.. all the tears n laughter.. wow.. i realli love all of u lotz.. i've found a permanent plc to stay in..

to my bro n sista-in christ..

den : u hav awaes been a person tat awaes touches my life.. u hav seen the worse part of me n u had definantly plc a footstep in my heart.. though sumtimes i c u tat u r unwilling.. but deep inside me.. i awaes feel tat god had the best plan fer u.. n i gt faith tat u will be the woman of god's heart one dae.. n after the camp.. ofcourse it realli proof to me tat n i hav NO doubt in it.. gal hav confident in wadever u do k.. i neo u can coz God nv once giv up on u.. ".) lov u lots sis!!

deb : tis gal definantly change 360 degree during the camp.. i am realli veri touched by her every move.. she is forever so cheerful n loving.. though i neo tat sumtimes u cant love pple as much as u lyk.. but i realli can c hw much u wanna change n be a person tat runnin after god's heart.. continue to hav tis faith n god neos wad u can do as he made the best plan fer u..
she oso had inspired me in mani areas.. her simple faith n bubbling character tat brings pple close to her.. wow is realli sumting tat is so genuine.. u neo wad u r sumone tat i treasure n lov so much.. n awaes so encouragin to me n pple ard her.. lov u lotz.. n lets build tis nyp 4 to last!!

cindy : hmp.. tis gal hav gone thru thick n thin wif lolie n me thru building tis nyp1.. i tink u hav tolerate me alot of time.. sorrie.. haha..giv me time to grow oso k.. hehe.. i rem tat time nyp1 tere is no much pple cumin fer cg.. she is awaes sumone wu is so encouragin n supportive.. a gal tat i see who is so loving.. i realli learn alot frm her.. n she is sumone tat i will wan to share my happiness n prob wif.. no matter hw buzi she is.. her heart is awaes in wantin to build god's kingdom.. wow.. realli love tis sista of mine.. n i'm sure ur future sheep will be so 'xin fu' (blessed) to hav u.. hehe... n nw tat we hav moved to nyp4.. i believe tat god had the greatest plan fer us.. n i hav faith tat wif all of u.. nyp4 will definantly prosper n grow..

giselle : wow.. an veri inspiration gal.. i c ur lifestyle tat is so real n awaes pounder me to wonder wad mks u to b awaes so happie.. i realli noy shepding u.. although u juz join us in nyp4 but u can awaes adapt top changes so easily.. i tell u tis .. u will go veri far.. sumone wu is oso veri supportive to tis grp.. n do u neo tat ur willingness n committment is veri pleasing to god? hehe.. yeah.. ofcourse i do wan tolearn n grow wif u.. lets realli c tis cum to a past k.. lov u lotz..

lolie : i hav so much more to sae.. sorrie tat time i burst out into tears.. wen i tink of hw lovely n encouragin to me it simply touches me so much so much.. i realli dun deserve all tis.. realli wanna thank god fer such a wonderful n wonderful awsome sista.. she awaes the one tere fer me encouraging me n pick me up wenever i fall dwn.. wen i was new in nyp1 she is awaes been so patience to me .. i awaes feel tat u r the guidance angel send frm above.. realli see hw god uses u.. ur life testimonial.. wow.. tere's juz so much to thank u for but juz duneo hw to xpress.. i can sense ur agape love (unconditioned love) for everyone.. juz lyk a mama to all of us.. haha.. a gentle gal YET wif great conviction.. she is also a role model for me to follow.. lets build a church tat will last till end ok? n i will see u at the end of the race!! hehe...

josh : a leader tat i respected alot.. seen his life change n his consistance lifestyle.. a real great testimonial.. realli wanna learn frm u tis heart tat is forever so carin n encouraging.. under his leadership i can see tat his grp is growin strong n gradualli.. even though hw tired n buzi is his work he still will cont to serve faithfulli .. a real n genuinly person.. thank god fer tis bro..

jo'n : my beloved ex-shepd.. wow ur life realli leave a deep footstep in my heart.. i c u frm a person wif faith to sumone wu is running after god's heart beat.. day by day i see hw u grow .. realli feel hw is ur love for ur sheep.. its so encouraging n i wanna learn frm u.. realli thank god tat u nv giv up on me tat time wen i was spiritual nt growin.. i neo i hav nt being a veri accountable sheep.. n i did mk u vomit blood lotz of time.. haha.. realli realli duneo hw to thank u.. but i think the greatest gift fer u is seeing me grow ba.. heehee.. last time i do not realize hw diff a leader can be.. nw i realize it.. it can been a lonely path.. but i neo its a fulfilling n meaningful one.. i will wan to c ya in the gate of heaven n rejoice together.. wahahaha....

liyan : ofcourse i will nt forget to affirm this one n onli wonderful shepd of mine.. she is one tat i wanna look upon.. she can awaes be so patience n lovely towrds me.. realli thank god fer ur inspiration n words of wisdom.. wow.. i awaes look frwd fer ur shepdin time... realli learn alot frm u since the dae i came into Hope.. no matter at nite wad time i call u .. u will still pick up my call.. a veri buzi yet available leader.. hehe.. awaes wantin to teach us to the best effort she can.. i tink i realli grow alot under ur care, thank you fer givin tis chance .. its thru all the testin n ur leadership tat i grow.. lov u lotz.. n lets fulfilled tis great commission together n i wanna b convenanted to u..

last but nt least of course i wanna thank tis ever one perfect father..

Abba : u hav nv failed me in ur tests.. even i failed u so mani time.. u keep givin me chance agn n agn.. wow.. u r so real in my life.. although sumtimes i do complain alot to u.. but ur everlastin patience n love is forever so sweet to my heart.. u nv once leave me alone.. i duneo how to xpress my love n thank fer u.. thank u fer enterin into my heart n givin me time to change to the kind of person u wanna me to be.. i wanna b convenanted to u.. pls change me n mould me or ever punish me wen i am walkin in the wrong track k.. lov u lots..

i gt lotz more pple to affirm wif.. onli time allow me to.. hehe.. nw i wan to go n prepare myself le.. gg fer cg.. wow so xcited n hopefulli able to sow on more contacts to cum.. hehe.. till we c agn.. tata..

2004-11-18T01:56:00.001+08:00

yeah!!! back frm tis wonderful NYP camp... wow i realli enjoy myself man... hmp realli wanna thanx god fer deb's mum's aunty to lend us such a wonderful semi-D to hav our camp tere... although its a simple hse.. but yet we realli had fun together fellowup wif each other.. wow.. n its so eye-opening lo.. c pple tere r realli happie n njoyin the company.. i learn alot frm the camp oso.. the momentom is realli wonderful at the 2nd dae.. i c hw god works.. esp in sum pple's life.. i realli am xcited fer the harvest time.. n c my grp grow n matured.. wow its so xciting.. god is so real in my life!!! nw the real test has cum.. n i realli pray fer my pple to stand firm n keep the fire in their hearts burnin.. n finish the race together.. wow..

n will c 'Dare 40r mOre' campaign cum to past..

arite gtg le.. tmr still gt to wk.. hav an wonderful dae ahead .. luv ya lotz.. cya

2004-11-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

wow.. it had been decade since i last blogged.. duneo wads my feeling nw ... hmp.. juz wish to hav a hot cup of tea n njoy the breeze outside the window.. n listen to music n fall into deep slp.. hhaa..

anw yest nite was realli a fun time.. we went to darrens hse n stay overnitez after our meetin.. befer tat went to the coffe shop n had our supper.. n tok had a great time sharing.. den we oso watch the VCD 'spirited away' it was so funni till the whole show we r laughin away.. haha.. esp the little rat n bird.. realli njoy myself wif the fellow bros n sista.. spend the whole dae awake i tink hardly anione slp.. coz i think too crowded le.. hehe..

nw i'm lookin frwrd fer the cumin NYP camp n student conf.. coz we will hav time together agn n praisin god.. yeah.. whahaa.. cant wait fer it to cum.. n tis cumin x-mas harvest..

my objective to tis cumin camp is:
1) wantin to c another level of faith and spiritual brkthru in my sheeps and my life
2) spend more fruitful time wif my sheeps and fellow-bros and sista
3) A vision god wans NYP4 to see

tats all fer todae's hehe.e. tmr gg to work.. yeah.. .. tc fwenz.. nitez update u wif more xcitin xperieces...

2004-10-06T14:55:00.000+08:00

Myself, a mask
Shrugging off the blows
Waiting for the next to fall
A suit of armor covering my soul
With every blow it gleams brighter
Steel that shines like the sun
Inside is myself wasting away
In the face of reality
Longing for a life of peace and truth
Dust am I
Sifting through the cracks in the armor
To lay upon the ground
To be crushed underfoot
To be scattered by the wind
And still the mask marches on
Relentless
Tireless
A shadow of the real me

=MauriceSprague

2004-09-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

sumtimes i feel tis eagerness in pple's life.. tey mite hack care on their wrong doin but they still do it.. hmp.. realli duneo y tey wanna do it wen tey hav the blessin frm god.. r tey takin tis fer granted? or r tey waitin fer sumtin realli happening to tem den tey wanna do sumtin abt it? sumtimes i do realli cant control my mood but juz to wan to scream.. hmp.. but i nv la.. hehee..

went to mental hosp yest .. initialli was veri frightening.. duneo if tey'll gt trigered by anitin we do.. but thank goodness.. notin realli happen to us.. hehe.. but tey are realli cute u neo.. tey r so initiative wen it cums to singing songs.. tey will nt feel embarrassed.. we dun hav to call tem out to sing one.. tey juz volunteered themselves.. haha.. so funnie.. den nxt we played the passing parcel den the forfitter hav to dance in front of us.. haha.. den tis particular patient.. he dance dance until his pants drop.. den its lyk all of us laugh he himself oso laugh.. feel so enbarrassed but still cont to dance.. hehee.. realli can see pure joy n laughter wen i was wif tem..

actualli a blessed person is to remain simple in life.. as u'll demand less of own needs.. but cares more fer pple's need.. izz it cool to hav the whole world to b lyk tis? tere'll b no bitterness, angerness, jealousness, disapponintment etc.. but when will tis dae cums? it is when we meet god face to face.. wow.. it will be so wonderful isnt it?

den after tat went to the BGR teaching(WFL).. learn so much frm tere.. sam tok abt the 7 myth abt true love (wad true love is not): 1- true love must satisfy me, 2-true love is a feeling (it's true it is nt abt feeling .. actualli its more than a feelin, it's abt committment), 3- it's based on outward appearance (no.. coz it will nt last long), 4 - for true love aniting go, 5- it is independent (accountabiliy to each other n spiritual coverin is essential) 6- true love makes me secure n giv me identity (dun hav to let pple to identify us) 7- true love means being alike..

den nxt wk will tok abt datin n courtship.. sound interestin rite? hmp.. so tuned on to nxt wk same channel.. cya bye

2004-09-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

boo~ yeah finali gt the time to update my blog.. hmp.. being veri veri buzi recently wif my projt.. but arite la.. gt renewed by god agn.. yeah!!

on Sun we went to old folk hm at hougang.. feel veri fulfilling after this trip.. n tok to mani ah-ma.. n learn abt their background..n all are lyk so cute lo.. den we oso sing song to tem , feed tem cake.. n tere's one ah-ma.. she veri cute lo.. i teach her to english.. guess wad i teach? hehe.. i taught her to sae 'i lov u' in eng.. den surprisingly after tellin her the meanin of it she sae it out to us.. wahaah.. she's so bubbly oso.. tian arh.. den its lyk we onli stay fer 2 hrs plus.. time passes veri fast.. cant bear to leave tem oso.. if ever i am free, i will wan to go bac to the plc agn.. anione wanna acc me? hehe..

everyone would wan to help the needy wen we saw tem suffer.. Our god is veri much the same.. He lov to assist us wen we need help and he loves to be needed . No one possess more knowledge n experiences than he does.. so He is the perfect source to turn to wen we need help.. His willingness to give neos no bounds, so tere's nv a time wen He will be unavailable.. turn to god in times of need.. as he promise tat.. he'll awaes help those wu loves him..

Prayer:

for my dear sista - pray tat u will b happie everydae.. pray tat in times of diff u will find help frm god.. in ur stressful time in ur life pray tat u will depend on him wu givs u strength.. pray tat all ur prayers cum to pass..

for my sheepies - pray tat u will find peace in times of stress coz u r jehovah shalom.. pray tat u will draw close to god each dae.. pray tat u will renewed every moment of ur life..

for u - pray tat wen u r lonely u will feel god's presence n love surroundin u.. pray tat u will b happie everydae.. pray tat wen tings gts too tough to handle u will find wisdom..

love u all my dear fwenz.. hehe.. till we c agn!! tc

2004-08-25T20:28:00.000+08:00

recently like to recite poet.. but no matter how hard i try still cant do it.. wahaha so i went to the web site n read poet.. hehe.. so envy pple wu can write poet abt their feelings.. den ask my fwenz hw can they do it.. tey tld me its when u becum emotional den its when u can write out poet.. but sumtimes my mood veri weird oso.. duneo where to start writin oso.. hehe.. so juz read their poet is more than happie fer me.. hohoho..

yest. meet up wif ivy n her fwenz.. wow its a long time since i tok to her.. hehe.. recallin the time we had together in sec sch.. so much fun wif the class.. still rem the loud laughter, blurbbin n stupid action mks me realise time realli past in a flash of light.. 3yrs had past.. haix missing the time so much.. n seein mani of my fwenz change.. hmp not onli change in their life but change to bcum more prettier ofcourse.. hehe..

feel so happie these few daes duneo y oso.. although so mani projt on hand but i dun feel much stress leh.. hehe.. arite.. gtg .. tmr james gt science test.. pray tat he will do well.. tc "p

2004-08-23T16:47:00.000+08:00

i wish i could stand on a busy corner, hat in hand, and beg pple to throw me all their wasted time.. tere's no time to waste.. even in the oylampic game.. tey are fightin fer the 0.001 sec to be the champ.. realli life is short.. every min tey are pple dyin of accident.. dun take time fer granted.. live ur life to the fullest.. u can nv turn back time.. n God's grace fer us is to spend tis time wisely to extend his kingdom, spreadin His truth.. awaes find myself running out of time.. hehhe.. suddenly tot of tis song..

AMAZING grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

gtg go.. meetin my sheepie d-bra.. update u agn.. love "p

2004-08-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

Above ALL

Above all powers above all kings
Above all nature and all create things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crusified laid behind the stone
You lives to die rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all

+ i realli wanna thank god fer givin me such a wonderful fwenz ard me.. realli been ncouraged by tem in my dullness time.. u r an awesome god.. cant wait to worship u everydae.. pray tat all my fwenz will be happie everydae n tere'll nt b ani anger, jealousy, tiredness, rejection .. coz u r the god wu giv us strength when we r weak.. although we may fall short of u.. but i neo when we put u first in life.. u will nv short change us.. n i wanna xperiences ur love more n more each dae!!

He's able to handle more than able
To accomplish what concerns me todae
to handle aniting tat comes my way
He's able more than able
To do much more than i could ever dream
To make me what He wants me to be

loving u.. =+=+SMILEZ coz u nv neo ur smilez touches pple's heart !!+=+=

2004-08-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

hmp... nw in the com lab.. waiting fer time to pass.. hehehe latr gg to celebrate jaime's bdae.. so decided to surv the webbie here.. den came across tis articles on the scientific proof of the bible like 'Science Versus Myth' n mani more.. it is veri interesting to neo it.. tis is the webbie.. anione interested can juz browse thru coz it is abit long.. so unable to paste it here.. http://www.spi.com.sg/study/articles/index.htm njoy...

i was veri excited.. hehe tis week i gt 3 good news tat i wanna share ..coz fer the past few weeks i had been feelin veri down due to friends, project and family prob.. and dun hav the 'mood' to do aniting even fellowshippin etc.. even sumtimes feel reluctant to go fer ani church tingy.. its lyk everytin seems so ''unlucky'' to me.. but tis week god realli show miracles in me.. first is myself.. on fridae i gotten my chk-up result.. was so moody n scared tat i will hear the bad news but realli thank god that it shows me to be negative result.. realli thankful for all the prayers tat had made for me.. then nxt is my cg.. i tink i hav been a CLa in NYP1 for abt 1 mth.. n actualli was quite fearful n faithless in leadin this grp..i hav been prayin to god abt my grp growing desperately n was afraid tat i cant even ask my contacts (i muz confess) fer the service coz i've nt been meetin up wif my contacts.. coz buzi wif my projt n family matters etc.. heehee.. n tis sat was suppose to go to the first service wif zihui n one of her fwen (first time visitor).. n tis was a good chance but too bad tat i hav a meetin to attend to.. so cant mk it.. den in the end cindy tk over me.. n meet up wif tem.. n guess wad .. durin the altar call she went up and recvd christ... wow it was lyk!! realli thank god for zihui n cindy.. n nw we hav a total of 3 NB in our grp.. wow.. god is answerin to my prayers.. n todae was our psycho presentation n we are lyk last min. doin the projt.. in my mind.. i was tinkin 'oh god, we r doomed fer tis time.. can show us sum miracles ant? coz we'r veri unprepared tat kind..' even todaE we mid up early.. n rush thru it n finalli done.. den when we reach the tut room.. was preparing fer the prsentation den the lect came in n saw us set up the stuff.. n tell us tat todae tere'll be no presentation .. den we r all lyk.. 'what?' becoz he wanna go thru last wk tut lesson tat we missed out.. n becoz he saw us all preparin the transpancy all tese.. den he giv us a choice to either present todae or nxt wk.. n guess wad we sae.. ofcourse we sae is nxt wk.. wahaha.. its lyk nw we'll hav more time to do n prepare.. YEA!!

+ even during my most desperate period of time.. god is awaes by my side .. no matter wad state of life i'm in.. no matter hw unfaithful i am.. god still show me mercy.. he show me tis verse.. Isiah 55:8-9 saes tis '' For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways.'' declares the Lord. ''As the heavens are higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.'' this verse show that man sumtimes cant sees the whole view of the prob they are facing.. tey can onli sees wad human will sees ( e.g ) man r onli at the 2nd levels and can onli see the near n surface ground.. but god is awaes at the highest level than us to actualli see the whole situation.. so y fear when God is for u.. wu can be against u? dun dwell in the prob .. but rather rejoice in it.. He sees everyting n becoz its onli when prob arise, u will be moulded into a beta person.. agree? n Romans 5:3-4 saes ''but we also rejoice in our suffering, becoz we know that thru suferrin it produces perservances; perservance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us...''

yeah .. n nxt week is the '66th street' n cindy is acting.. wow.. haha.. gt to see her denial herself n act man!! heehhee.. so xcited.. OMG.. okok was so cold here.. gtg .. cya den bye.. love ya

2004-08-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

wantin to update my blog yest but too tired liao.. i'm so happie to meet up wif deborah, loli's NB.. wow she is realli sumone wu can crap lo.. can tok to her everytin under the sky and rainbow lo.. after loli intro me to her, den she went fer lesson.. left me n deb.. i scared i gt notin to sae to her.. but den on the way to swimmin pool.. while we waited fer loli to end her lessons.. the both of us keep tokin non-stop.. wow.. its realli cool neoin tis fwen.. she gt lotza ting cmmon to me.. feel so real n natural when i was wif her.. realli thank god fer her.. we tok veri loud n as if it was our own hse lyk tat.. hehe.. den realise tat she lyks outdoor activities alot.. n nt frgttin food.. she even join alot of activities in sch.. hmp.. but too involve in it oso nt veri good.. meanin will hab lesser time wif us.. hehehehe.. u neo wad she joined? she join adventure club, campus crusade, kickboxin, drama arts n ambassodors.. wow realli alot lo.. duneo hw she manange her time.. hmp.. time past veri fast tok till abt 2hrs den we went swimmin while waitin fer loli,, n cindy sit tere n do her work.. we had great fun .. teachin deb hw to swim.. she veri cute lo.. she duneo hw to use her nose to breath out in water.. so i gt to teach her.. hehe.. sorrie huh to sae all ur 'chou si' here.. but i neo u dun mind rite?

after swimmin.. we tk lotza photos oso at the plc.. its so coolin tere.. hmp.. anw after tat we went to eat.. n tat plc i nv knew it exist lo.. its near our sch.. the food tere is veri x' lo n the service nt veri good oso.. hehe.. anw we hab a great dinner together.. n was plannin our nxt gatherin agn.. which we r gg to little india n eat.. YEAH... suggested by deb.. realli lookin fwd fer the time agn.. n tis sat she cumin fer service ...yeah!!! so fun...realli thank god fer D-bra, cindy n loli.. hehe.. ofcourse i realli pray fer more pple cumin to our grp n join our big family.. realli njoy fellowshippin..

God nv failed to ncourage me or giv up on me.. even if i lose faith.. i neo he's wif me awaes..
recappin frm last wk durin the SOS.. jas said bfer..''awaes keep an short account to god everydae..'' its awaes to remind urself n to refresh ur mind, heart n soul.. n not accumulate it.. until u cant tk it n brk dwn.. it's whn u can fall easily..
Prayer : god renew my heart awaes lord.. n help me to maintain a child-faith in u.. thank god fer the obstacles in my life.. as i grow each dae.. i realise the meanin n purpose of life.. oso pray fer a revival in nyp.. n tat the lost sheep will soon find their way bac to their shepd.. thank god fer everytin tat has breathe.. amen!

till we meet agn!! tc... love "p

2004-08-01T01:47:00.000+08:00

u neo wad..i realli njoy readin pple's blog n neoin wad's happenin in ppl'e life esp my close fwen..tis is whr we realli neo their prob.. wow.. realli tanx god fer tis site.. waahhaa... arite.. start wif my dae : wake up early to pack up my stuff n do sum crafts fer the beliver.. hehe.. felt so filled to dae.. todae had a combine cg together wif jo'n.. wow first time man.. hehe.. was quite xcitin ya.. den after tat went to fetch jiahui.. n learn guitar frm jo'n.. hehe.. i tink i am nt concentrading in learnin coz i'm eatin!! haha.. sorrie huh jo'n.. but i will learn it wen i'm at hm.. provided i dig out my guitar first.. wahaha..

todae when i was walkin hm after the SOS meet.. was recapping wad i had bein doin fer the whole wk.. pple ard me had been veri hardworkin in sudies even in servin god.. n i look into myself agn.. wad did i do? wu hav i impacted? haix.. sad to sae.. i'm abit disappointed in myself.. not bein doin well in work (tryin to but notin cums out) n serving god (awaes buzi wif my sch work) iz tis wad i wan in life.. i found tat i hav bein wastin time in tings tat r nt impt.. mani pple out tere is waitin fer my 'rescue' yet i cant help much.. felt veri useless lo..n gt so much burden fer pple.. i'm not superwoman oso.. realli admire god man.. every dae even every min he has been listenin to our prob.. hw can he tk all these ? of course he is god.. so i will awaes remind myself at the end of the dae.. i'm doin tings to pleased god n nt to pleased man.. i cant possibly pleasin eveyone ard me rite? therefor i realli need lots of wisdom .. i neo onli thru him i can do tings tat is beyond wad i can do.. hehe.. juz feel so refreshed nw..

P.S : rem awaes set aside time to seek god n meditate on him regularly.. n nt frgettin to renew our heart mind n soul.. by tis u will b refreshed n feel 'free' like a bird in the sky.. hheeh.. do i mk sense? (nvm dun understand cum n find me.. wahaha..)

gt to go oing oing liao.. hav a blessed wkends.. tc lotz... luv ya..

2004-07-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

wow... i njoy myself yest.. altot the makan xperience i was nt able to see the endin.. but i tink shld be quite fun .. pple lyk aifang, tiffani n even xyvia came fer the events.. wow.. den after tat the center stage.. wow its realli a close contest man.. although all the songs i dun neo but i njoy the melody veri much.. n in the end guess wu is the finalist?? *drum*....*chiang* its NEL... wow.. congrats to her man.. was singing wonderfulli.. n after tat she share her story.. its veri touchin n i can sae it impact into mani pple.. n den ps jeff shared his oso.. n guess wad.. durin the altar call xyvia went dwn to recd christ.. was so happie fer him... congrats to u!!

den after tat went to starhub to makan.. n one of loli fwen suddenly hav gastric pain.. den jo'n n i was lyk tinkin ways of wad to do.. so i took out my glove n wana mk a warm compress.. n guess wad , we cant find any warm water ard.. so in the end we went to ask the coffe aunty sell us hot water.. n when try to pour in.. accidentalli scalded my finger.. hehe.. nw gt abit blister.. n was actualli worried abt my practical on scrubbin tis cumin tue.. duneo lyk tat hw to scrub man.. god pls heal my little finger so tat i can do my practical test.. amen!! after seein her feelin beta .. i am more relieve.. den wahaha veri funni jo'n was tinkin if she is havin appendix ant.. coz she keep pressin her left side.. den i was confuse oso.. duneo which side is appendi.. in the end i ask my fwen n tey sae on the right.. its lyk mkin so much guessin .. wahaha.. gt to go bac sudy bio agn liao man...

den after tat we went to play pool.. n everywhr is lyk crowded wif hope pple.. wahaha.. nxt time we muz hav our own hope pool shop... heheh... *vision* but still in the end manage to gt a table fer ourselves.. heheh.. n u neo wad.. cindy realli play veri well lo.. realli gt to learn frm her.. cindy shi fu hehe...

arite.. gt to go n sudy liao.. lov u lotz pple.. hav a blessed wkdaes!!

2004-07-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

if u bELve it , Liv3 bY it..

its realli true that sumtimes in life.. u will finds tat time n time agn u will face diff. trails.. but u neo wad.. its until u neo the truth den u will live by it.. n will not feel difficult at all... onli when u feel tat u r using ur own strength.. u can do noting.. God walk into our life at every moment in our life, though sumtimes we dun feel it.. but he's bein tere tat u r too buzi to be sensitive to his words.. y not slow dwn in the moment of stressful time.. reflectin on the salvation .. conquerin the satan wu's temptin us.. n renewing his love for us.. avoidin wad's truth is not a way out.. y nt believe in his truth n follow him thru..

todae i went for the seminar about counselling.. Conquerin Addiction .. in another word it means.. Overcoming temptation.. wow n tis speaker she is a proff in the sch of psycho n counselling.. a veri passionate ladies wu wanting much to discpling pple ard churches..

BREAKING THE BONDS OF SEXUAL ADDICTION

Men n woman struggle with the same root problem, but we juz choose different idols to try to satisfy our needs apart from christ.. this kind of addiction is a spiritual battle.. ultimately we should know who to pleased.. not tat it means god dun wana us to hav idol.. or else he wunt create man n woman.. its when u r bein tested tat u will grow.. n its time whr u will either run away frm him or draw closer to him.. Failing is when u give up tryin.. so y nt tk up tis as a form of joyfulness in our heart.. it makes life more fulfillin n meaningfulling.. whahaha...

char went bac to aussie liao.. tok to her yest.. wow i guess tis is the first time we realli shared our life.. Girl u rUlez man.. dun worrie abt wad u cant do.. coz god areadi plan fer u wad u can do, tats the reason y He put u here n not africa.. heehee.. arite.. u jia you k.. u can do it one.. we r battling btw life n death
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tc my fwenz... love love

2004-07-09T20:24:00.000+08:00

wow.. i guess this moment of my life is realli the most challenging time in my life.. god realli giving me testin.. hmp.. was prayin fer tests in my life.. tere u go.. tis is my testin.. wow.. god u r real man!! haha.. alrite since u giv me tese tests, last time the test i oso go thru liao.. i believe tis one i am able 2.. god realli gt to giv me wisdom man!! i'm not gg to let u go.. u understnad? yap.. at the mean time, i will lyk to njoy every moment of my life.. i hav been reflectin on my life fer the whole dae.. a person is realli veri fragile.. nw i will tk extra effort to feel fer my pple.. realli regret so much.. now tat i'v learn a lesson.. realli.. not juz busi wif stuff but oso involve wif pple's life..

tis is the song tat i wanna dedicate to my fwenz wu r awaes tere wif me fer the mani mani years of my life.. realli thanx fer bein tere fer me.. i awaes turn to u when i gt prob.. n i hope u will oso turn to me when u feel lyk wan to chat.. for i'm 24hrs being tere fer u..

"I Turn To You"

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
- pushing me to the top.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.

chorus
For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true
I turn to you.

love u lotsz dear friend!!

2004-06-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

+=+=+=+GIVING+=+=+=

" Nothing that you have not given
away will ever be really yours."
-C. S. LEWIS

" The manner of giving is
worth more than the gift."
-PIERRE CORNVILLE

" There was never a person who did anything worth
doing that did not receive more than he gave."
-HENRY WARD BEECHER

" When you are labouring for others,
let it be with the same zeal as
if it were for yourself."
-CONFUCIUS

" Give what you have. To someone,
it may be better than you dare to think."
-HENGRY WADSWORTH LONGFELLOW

" Behold, i do not give lectures or a little charity.
When i give, i give myself."
-WALT WHITMAN

" God has given us two hands - one to recieve with
and the other to give with."
- BILLY GRAHAM

2004-06-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

wahaha... listentin to Jesus is.. wow.. is veri nice man.. hehe.. an hr latr gtg don's hse liao.. den stay overnite tere till nxt mornin fer the camp.. wowow cant wait fer the camp man.. hhaha.. so xcited fer the camp coz most of the nyp gg .. hehe.. sure will njoy alot n will hav more chance to gt to neo tem personalli.. hehe.. realli hope tat durin the camp god will Aoint me n train me to be a beta shepad wif christ-like personality.. reaali xcited fer the teachin n fun.. arite.. prepare to go off liao.. gt bac agn when bac frm camp!! tc

2004-05-31T12:55:00.000+08:00

And pray that we may be delivered from the wicked and evil men, for not everyone has faith. But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.

2 Thessalonians 3:2-3 (NIV)

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Now in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went to them, walking on the sea. And when the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, "It is a ghost!" And they cried out for fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, "Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid." And Peter answered Him and said, "Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." So He said, "Come." And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, "Lord, save me!" Matthew 14:25-30

In the light of the enormity of the deadline that I sometimes faced with, I feel very inadequate. Overburden by overwhelming workload and seemingly impossible task, I feel 'burn out'.

'I am stressed out' I tell myself. 'Its easier to sleep through it'. I know I cannot in my own strength go through the projects that I have to complete, because it's too tiring for me. Neither can we, as mere men, walk on water, yet we read in Matthew 14:28 that Peter was able to walk on water--as long as he kept his focus on Jesus. However, when he started looking at what he was doing, and realized the sheer impossibility of it, he started to sink.

Peter is often criticized because he started to doubt and began to sink. However, it must not be overlooked that he was the only one of the twelve who had the courage to get out of the boat! So what is the boat in our daily life? The comfort zone that we so want to cling on to like the rest of the 11 disciples. Because remember, we can't walk on water unless we step out of the boat (comfort zone) and believe Daddy for the 1000 times MORE!!!

You and I serve a remarkable Daddy who absolutely loves dealing with our inadequacies. In fact, the Bible tells us that we should be happy about our weaknesses because they give us the opportunity to experience the power of Christ in our lives. Jesus said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." (2 Co. 12:9) To this statement the Apostle Paul replied, "Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."

no matter hw small or big the problem u face.. focus on God.. as he will delivered u away the evil one.. trust in him as he will mk u go thru'it.. hav a nice dae!!

2004-05-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

had been a sad dae fer me.. lotza tings happen in the family.. mum suddenly went out of the hse.. giv me a fright.. den was quite fierce to the people ard me.. sorrie tis i apologise n wanna repent..

but sumtin bless me oso tis afternoon.. which is my student.. realli thank god.. he has been so enthu todae abt the lesson.. even ask me to find qn fer him to do.. haha.. but sad lo.. coz all the qn all done liao.. notin fer him to do.. i tink its time fer me to buy new xercises fer him.. hehe.. n oso todae realli blessed by jonathan.. realli encourage by his words.. tis morning meetin him up to do his passport.. den after tat mit joanne mammi fer awhile to safari.. saw mammi fav animal.. guess wad? haha.. yap its DOGGGSSSSSS... haha.. realli so cute n katip .. n she keep makin the dog to hit onto the glass .. so funni lo.. haha.. rite jo'n? haha... ok den go to sch n mid up wif huiling fer 10mins tokin wif her fwen.. haha den buy her sweet n bookmark .. hope tat she wunt finds me irritatin can liao.. hahah.. can see tat she is been veri tired.. coz she nv smile at me.. sad :( haha.. but nvm at least she is willing to meet up wif me.. realli god is testin my perservances.. hmp.. i muz pass this test.. Lord be wif me k... tanx.. hehe.. alrite gt to stop here.. tmr gg out wif xinjie tey all long time nv mit tem.. mizz tem loadszz... den after tat go play badminton.. yeah!!! nyp3 let's fight!! haha.. c wu's the best player in nyp3.. keke.. so xcited.. alrite.. gonna sleep tired.. tc fwenz

2004-05-13T17:48:00.000+08:00

it has been veri long since i enter here.. hmp tis plc change alot gettin more stylo..
lot of tings happening tis few daes..veri happening n realli is a big testing frm god..has been buzi but 'm busi wif purpose..has see hw god realli wanna mould us..n wanna thank god for joanne.. she had been perservering on all along..awaes motivatin me..dun worrie i'll nt let God and u dwn.. coz i neo He hav nv give up one me..so r U!!NYP3 lets combine our forces k!! jiayou jiaoyou.. we can do it one..n the toopid SA.tan dun tink we can easily move lo..nanana poopoo..we will stand still even wif thunder storm.. coz we hav God.. rite pple? Aipeng, denice, jamie, sharon n huiling.. muz jiayou 2 k.. no matter whr we r nw.. we still r serving the same god.. going towrds the common goal.. ya? rem. our 100yrs latr appointment? we can mk it one.. hav faith n be obedient k.. n lets motivate n ncourage each others.. surely we will b able to coz god saes we can do all things thru christ wu strengthen us.. AMEN? i'm in the boat, r u at the same boat? heheh.. keke gtg, tc my dear fwenz.. hav a bubbling daes ahead!! :p

2004-04-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

hmp.. long time nv enter here liao.. guess u all muz be mizzin me rite? wahaha.. ok anw todae havin the pedaetric xamination..hehe.. hai hao that the saq i hav learnt came out.. i guess this paper is quite easy lo.. hmp tat means mani pple will gt good marks.. but anw i hav done my best liao.. aba u will do the rest fer me one rite? hehe.. nw onli scare of the other paper.. realli too much to learn n memorise liao.. but pray tat i will hav a supernatural brain to sudy hehe.. i will pray fer all of ur oso.. dun worri.. hehe.. tmr gg to church n will b my first time serving.. hehe so xcited man.. yeah.. think tonite cant slp liao.. sumore tmr my fwenz r cumin to church hehe.. so happie oso.. hope tey hav funz.. thank god fer everydae!!! lov ya!! *winkz*

2004-04-18T01:44:00.000+08:00

another week had past.. i've been reflectin abt wad i hav been doin tis whole week.. i tot of alots of tings n stuff.. but noting seems right to me.. n todae sermon had realli touch my heart.. i can feel tat god is speakin to me.. suddenly lyk god is qntioning me.. ''u've been doin alot of tings in this wk but hav u used ur time wisely?'' ''if not , y nt? r u keepin focus on me?'' n i realli gt to confess i hav try to stay focus but at times i cant do tat coz sumting is lingerling in my mind.. i duneo wads tat.. but iz juz bein too stress up wif tings..

thru lenon testimonial, i hav learn tat even thru all the discouragment n criticizm he had face, he stil cont to persever on wif his faith.. realli he is a person wif sin oss.. he can do it hw cum i cannot? i muz prove to satan my courages n perseverance..

i confess tat i nv prioritise my work well.. i hav awaes been havin prob wif it..den durin the sermon pastor tok abt dabbling wif ur work.. dun b lyk a rolling ball.. but instead stay focus n ask god to enlarge ur heart n strengthen us.. n thru courage must stand out of consequence.. i'm nt good in expression .. i duneo hw to express my heart out hw much god had spoken to me..

all i neo is i will cont to work wif him n stay my focus in him.. may our nyp3 win tis battle... kambateh!!

2004-04-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

=J= h0t dae! hmp.. finally was free.. being buzi wif my case study tis week.. gt no time to cum online n update myself.. was veri stress up tis few daes hehe.. onli slp for 3 to 5hrs.. veri tiring.. okok.. enuff of all the complaining.. anw had a great dae , learn alot tday frm my posting.. actualli tere's little hands-on.. but still i can sae i hav learn lots frm the nurses tere.. gt to neo my fwenz beta each dae.. was blessed to hav my fwenz wif me during tis postin.. hehe.. realli wanna thank god tat every postin so far i had.. i hav njoyed it veri much.. pple wif diff character.. gt to neo n handle tem.. esp those nasty ones.. realli sum kind of headache.. but overall i njoy it though its xhausted after work.. my student tmr gt oral.. muz pray fer him man.. hehe.. keke.. hav to go rest early tmr gt to go bac sch to help the elderly wif health screening.. hehe.. so xcited..!! =>

2004-04-11T14:34:00.000+08:00

=J= thank god for peng jie.. tryin so hard to help me get this fixed.. wahaha.. muz write sumting here orelse waste her effort.. hmp.. ur IT skill gettin beta huh.. yeah.. yest is 3asTer dae.. i was so happie.. although i cant invite most of my fwenz to view the court case of God.. but thankfulli was able to invite kenneth to be here n witness..n oso shuqi realli happie to c u here.. hope that in the near future all of us can serve God together..i neo i cant conviced tem but i neo god can.. i'm waiting fer tat dae.. realli!! n hope tey njoy the performance coz i realli njoyed it ".) the actors n actresses were xceellent man!! realli had a great laugh.. esp the 'ms cecelia' n 'bao gong'..haha.. lolx.. den after the service left my contact alone, feel so bad.. coz he meetin his fwenz.. so cant blame me oso la..

den went to cuppage n had our dinner.. dine time is alwaes the best time to fellowship wif each other n m0st impt.ly` njoy the food paradise.. wahaha.. so shiok man the spicy chicken.. pple ur muz try the hotplate nxt time.. realli nice u neo.. haha.. keke.. enuff of it.. *drooling* liao.. duneo y my appetite tis few daes becum so large.. tink god hear my prayers ba.. alwaes pray tat i can grow fatter.. haha..but not so fat la.. hehe thanku daddy..

=J= todae wk up in the morning had tuition wif my 'beloved' student.. sumtimes feel tat he's juz tryin to waste time lo.. awaes bein distracted by other tings.. he had not being concedntratin after his mum left hm fer work.. gt no choice.. so i scolded him.. tink god is testin my patient ba.. den in the end made him cry, feel so bad lo.. i'm doin tis fer his own sake lo.. xam cumin n still dun wanna concentrade.. his mum had been tryin so hard to giv him tuitioning.. he still lyk tat.. haix.. realli gt to vent my anger on him.. den after tat i tink he neo i'm angry liao.. he start to concntrade abit.. haix.. he oso quite poor boi lo.. keep complaining his arm is painful.. i cant do aniting lo.. juz can divert his attention to other tings.. n giv him sweet.. haix realli feel burden.. in his heart i neo he wanna do well.. but he duneo hw to ba.. n oso lyk to play alot n frgting abt sch wk.. xam nxt wk lo.. realli gt to drill him liao.. pray tat he will nt gt distracted durin my lesson n God pls healed his arm.. keke.. hav been writin too much liao.. gt to stop here.. cya agn when i cya!! "p